trying to make excuses for the can
in my hand. I remember being
in the church, a guest at a
wedding of two people
I didn’t know. My date pointed
out two little boys
walking to their seats in
front of us. In little suits and
cowboy boots, this is what
is central Illinois. And my date
said he was sure those boys
would grow up to be gay. And
the worst part was their father
was the coach of the high school
football team. I think I
laughed, but I hesitated.
I remember being in the
church, it was Christmas
Eve, my date’s family went up
for communion, and all I could think
was that singing the hymns was
hard enough, I don’t know the
words, what am I doing here,
what am I supposed to do? And I
stayed seated, and everyone else
slowly walked to the front of the
church. Little soldiers in a
little line, the little children
in their little dresses walking
behind their mommies and
daddies. And the little girl
said, “I thought only daddies
drank beer.” And I found myself
trying to make excuses.
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