But I don’t think I earned this
I think I’m being punished
For a deed I did not commit
Who am I supposed to apologize to
Who am I supposed to accountable
Who am I supposed to forgive
I don’t want to think about the bad stuff
But some things are bad and some things are worse
And it keeps coming back to haunt me
And I don’t like it
I don’t want to live this way, and
I don’t want to keep paying for someone else’s sins
people tell me I’m being pessimistic
when I say I don’t want to
But at least it proves, at least,
That I am angry, and
That I live
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