Children, Churches and DaddiesVolume 159, April 22, 2006The Unreligious, Non-Family-Oriented Literary and Art Magazine
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Should the federal government be compelled to pay proterty taxes to local municipalities in which the federal government owns land? - Question asked to Ayn Rand after the lecture the Moratorium on Brains (Boston, Ford Hall Museum, 1971). This quetion also appears in the book Ayn Rand Answers, Centennial Edition. All Id ask in response is, Where would the Federal Government get the money from? Theyd get it by taxing individuals... |
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When popular opinion seems to hold that Clinton was a Godsend (because this presidency coincided with the stock market boom with the computer technology decade, so the economy was good), and every news media outlet proudly proclaims that Bush is bad after robbing Gore from the presidency. People have wondered that after the Clintons moved to New York and since Hillary Rodham Clinton has become a senator, people have wondered if Hillary would be a shoe-in for the presidency after Ws eight years are up.
By definition, Im a feminist and that doesnt mean when should have special rights, that means women should have equal rights. But as a classic feminist, I believe it would be a good move if a talented woman was elected president. Now, Hillary was only the first lady in the 90s, but she was involved enough with knowing about what business Bill was involved with (Presidential business, apparently not all personal business), and she was involved with health care reform, so Id think she would know how to step into those presidential shoes. She kept a good face for the public when Bill Clinton was going through his personal cigar ordeal, and both Hillary and her husband Bill are even lawyers (just proving that shes not just some dumb cookie). But I know there are a lot of people out there who wouldnt want a woman as their President, so any woman who runs for office will really have an uphill battle. So... going on her lawyer schooling, and her eight years of semi-experience in the White house (even if its only as the first lady, she probably knew more about the business of the Presidency than first ladies thirty years ago), and her position as a senator in New York now... People wonder if she has the experience. But then the question then arises: does Hillary Rodham Clinton deserve it?
Some Democrats love Hillary Clinton (but then again, they lost the Presidential election when they wanted anyone and anything to get rid of Bush), but Republicans will quickly point out that as Senator, Hillary Clinton has introduced tons of relatively useless legislation that hasn't gone anywhere in the Senate (if she actually spearheaded something of value, it would show initiative, and the desire to make positive changes and the ability to lead). A writer has even released a book hoping for an all-female Presidential battle, pitting Hillary Rodham Clinton against the Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice (who has stated she didnt want to run for President), where race could also play a serious role in electing a new President. So where does that leave us?
It leaves me seeing television shows highlight her talking to a black group on Martin Luther King, Jr. day, saying the current government was run like a Plantation. When you look at the way the House of Representatives has been run, it has been run like a plantation, and you know what Im talking about, is what this Democrat Senator of New York told the crowd at the Canaan Baptist Church of Christ in Harlem.
Yes, she said that. You know, to relate to the black people she was talking to. And well, Im not black, but I dont know what she was talking about with that remark. That the House of Representatives owns a plantation and the the rest of the government works like slaves for the House of Representatives? Or is it that because the government is so Republican right now, did she mean that it allows the House of Representatives to act like Plantation owners, and all American civilians are slaves? Her statement is confusing, and probably offensive to black people, and I still dont even get what she means. When I heard about her comment, and when I even heard the liberal media comment on it on television, they even thought she was off her rocker with that line.
All I could think was, doesnt she have someone to bounce off speeches to? Wouldnt someone have pointed out that this might not be an appropriate thing to say? But I was told that she probably did confer with a writing staff to pull that line off, and staff writers could have even suggested that line to her. So I thought, And they let her say that?
So then I wondered that if she couldnt figure out how to use decorum talking to a group on Martin Luther King, Jr. day, maybe she wouldnt be appropriate for the Presidency.
And yeah, its not fair of me to make a judgement about a potential Presidential candidate from one bad quote, but there are a lot of people including Democrats talking about her potential - and the potential demise for a Democrat as president, if Hillary is their front runner. Everyone seems to agree that she would be a shoe-in for the Primaries, but she wouldnt stand a chance in a general election. That shes too liberal, shes polarizing, that people arent ready to vote for a woman President. And if people think shes too polarizing, consider a nationwide Quinnipiac University poll conducted on December 16, George Bushs negatives are even worse than hersby six points.. Or consider Ronald Reagan, who in 1978 was only some b movie actor, who even played second fiddle to a monkey in a movie. But he strutted around like he knew he was good to be the President, and said the right things - and this cheesy actor managed to win two elections. In 1980, Democrats were praying Reagan would run in the Republican primary, believing he was too conservative, and he won. In this case, people say Hillary is too liberal, so she would never win. So whos right?
And there are both sides to every story told. Because if people think shes too liberal, well, since working in the Senate, she has done everything to look like a centrist, from supporting the death penalty to supporting the war in Iraq. Shes even sitting on the Armed Services Committee... And although she appears to have become more centrist, according to the National Journal, Hillarys voting record has gotten increasingly liberal as her senatorial career has worn on.
Although she could raise a ton of money for her Presidential run, and although shed have the charming Bill Clinton helping her every step of the way free of charge, and although she can charm anyone she meets, she still seems bland and unappealing on television. Shes got a lot of uphill battles, and... And saying things like she said
Jennifer Senior of The New York Metro noted that if this were to actually happen, wed see two strange alternating political dynasties, one composed of husband and wife, the other of father and son. She also noted in her article The Once and Future President Clinton (http://newyorkmetro.com/nymetro/news/politics/national/features/11082/): Unlike Bush, though, who never seemed to wrestle with his political eligibilitythats the marvelous thing about family wealth, how it lends the illusion youve earned your privilegesHillary would be dogged by the same questions that dogged a whole generation of feminists about power and how its acquired. Sure, her candidacy would be the ultimate suffragette triumph, but itd also send a complicated message: So this is how we get to the White House? On a flagstone path laid by our husbands? And what would Bill be, if she won? Co-president? Just as her husband promised to end welfare as we knew it, Hillary, by definition, would have to end the office of the First Lady as we know it. Unless Bill were content to spend the next four years selecting china patterns.
So yea, there are a lot of questions on both sides. But a Quinnipiac polls even show shed beat Rudolph Giuliani if he ran against her for Senate in 2006. And I dont even know if she actually could stand a chance. All the things were sure would be her downfall, are things others have used to actually win the Presidency.
But then again, I read on BBC News that Hillary Rodham Clinton said to ABCs Barbara Walters she has no intention of running for the White House herself in 2008. At this point in the game, I dont know her intentions, or her chances.
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Janet Kuypers
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It looks as if the schoolteachers may be redoing their solar system charts.
A new planet has been discovered in the solar system. And, if you were to craft this planet out of foam for a school science project, it would be roughly 20 to 30 percent larger than Pluto.
On July 29, 2005, Dr. Mike Brown of the California Institute of Technology (Caltech) announced the discovery of the new planet in the outer region of our solar system. The planet, which hasnt been officially named yet, is about 97 times farther from the sun than Earth, or 97 Astronomical Units (AU).
In comparison, Pluto is 30 AU from the sun.
The planet cataloged as 2003UB313, at the lonely outer fringes of our solar system. Our sun can be seen in the distance. The new planet, which is yet to be formally named, is at least as big as Pluto and about three times farther away from the sun than Pluto. It is very cold and dark. The planet was discovered by the Samuel Oschin Telescope at the Palomar Observatory near San Diego, Calif., on Jan. 8.
This places the new planet in the Kuiper Belt, a dark realm beyond Neptune where thousands of small icy bodies orbit the sun. The planet appears to be typical of Kuiper Belt objects, only much bigger. Its sheer size in relation to the nine known planets means that it can only be classified as a planet, Brown said.
Backyard astronomers with modern detectors mounted on large telescopes can find the new planet, which looks like a dim speck of light moving very slowly against the starry background.
The planet was discovered by Brown, Chad Trujillo of the Gemini Observatory in Mauna Kea, Hawaii, and David Rabinowitz of Yale University in New Haven, Conn. They first photographed the new planet with Caltechs 48-inch Samuel Oschin Telescope on Oct. 31, 2003. The object was so far away, however, that its motion was not detected until they reanalyzed the data in January of this year.
We are 100 percent confident that this is the first object bigger than Pluto ever found in the outer solar system, Brown said.
The planets temporary name is 2003 UB313. A permanent name has been proposed by the discoverers to the International Astronomical Union (IAU), and they are awaiting a decision before announcing the name. However, scientists have nicknamed the planet Xena after the fictional warrior princess.
And, to add even more wonder to the discovery itself, this planet has company out in the recesses of the solar system.
Since the day we discovered Xena, the big question has been whether or not it has a moon, Brown said. Having a moon is just inherently cool and it is something that most selfrespecting planets have, so it is good to see that this one does too.
Brown estimates that the moon, dubbed Gabrielle after Xenas sidekick, is at least one-tenth the size of Xena.
Pluto once seemed a unique oddball at the fringe of the solar system, Brown said. But we now see that Xena, Pluto and the others are part of a diverse family of large objects with similar characteristics, histories and even moons, which together will teach us more about the solar system than any single oddball ever would.
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It was a showing of a re-discovered original print
Barbara Stanwyck sleeps her way to the top,
still transgressive, even taboo today,
with unintentional humor along the way,
proving yet again nothing is deader than yesterdays slang
After the movie was over,
there was a showing of two altered scenes
from the censored release,
plus
the false (in many ways) ending of the altered version,
provoking laughter from many in the audience,
smugly secure that such censorship
couldnt happen today
Will I ever get out of this cell?
The walls have been greased
With insect repellant
And the fire alarm no longer works
All there is left to do
Is fly
In the gauzy moments of waking
missing you is comparable to breathing
tacit and more difficult in the cold
I count morningtime in thirds
waltz with your reminiscence
steep my tea in the waters of the Lethe
I wait for a bus
where there is no stop,
but its not frequent that
public transportation traverses
this country-roaded dead end.
I hear distantly
dogs barking,
22 shots firing,
and an occasional
roosters crow.
I take in leaves
examples of every
lobe and venation type,
colors from at least
seven of the eight
in the crayon box
I smell the chlorophyll,
the sand made mud
by last nights rain,
feel the earth
at my fingertips,
and yet I wait.
Here, I wait.
© 2005 Frank Anthony
I see through the dragons eye.
Timeless viewed scales.
Alleyways with muted hymns of joy
Verandas of profound sorrow
Another stone upon the ageless back.
In another time a woman cries
As a baby laughs.
Dust chokes back mottled tears,
Settling, swirling, bodies of lies.
Clink as the stones clang together among good company
I saw a flower once
As it grew between boards bent in disagreement.
Inside the window an old man tries to scrub his face young,
And now you wash and try to become clean.
A belt of Scripture holds me straight.
All the answers are out there
But sometimes looking at the puzzle too close
Seems to be solving a riddle with cracked glasses.
One that only looks complete when it is turned upside down,
Or at a slant or a distance.
Never right before ones face.
Its simply too close.
This writing and photogrtaphy was also in the book Remnants and Shadows.
Until it does, and your eyes flutter
in a deep world, gentle whispers of
waves, splashing softly against the shore
But then your four year old comes
crashing into your room, crying, with
shit all over the carpet
Easy, he leaves, and you turn over
to your lover, and kiss her
smooth
and you glide into the rhythm of
passion
Then that asshole neighbor
starts up the lawn mover at 6:00am, and
mows, and
mows
But the smell of freshly cut grass is nice
and when the sun slants into the room
warming your face with sleepy rays, you
glide
Until that piece of shit fire alarm
goes off because your teenage daughter burnt her toast
and the wailing gives you a bastard headache
Slipping quietly away
into a slumber, at last
birds chirping outside
Then one hits your window, and
he lies there, flapping
dying
and you have to go outside in your towel
and break its neck
Finally you scream
FUCK
Scream in the darkness
but make no sound.
Flash all the lights,
but the bulbs are broken.
Clang the bell
that has no tongue.
Clap your hands,
whose skin has unraveled
in shreds.
Walk to the farthest end
of the road only to find
that there is no one there
to cry for you.
Who will sing
at your funeral?
I have found no better companion
To drink my morning cup-o-joe with than the man
On the brown mug in which my coffee sits.
The man is but a face, a bas relief
That sticks out of the side of the clay cup
Like a joke. Like fattened lamb thighs
His white crossed eyes meet each other.
His big snout sits compromised above
The massive moustache that almost makes the look,
Like he had been hit over the head by a ten-pound bag
Of whole coffee beans. An elaborate handle,
Thumb rest and all, provides the macaroni
Hair style. Coffee mug,
You put a smile on my face every morning
When I open my office door, right when I remember
My college fish friends. Before I killed them all,
Even the big orange one I dubbed Poseidon,
I was too poor to buy an entire obstacle course
For the little gillies, so I put you inside the tank
In place of a plastic mini cave, and watched
The ghoti stare wide-eyed before diving
Deep into your darkened innards.
Joseph has apparently gone off his medication.
Two years ago, he used to glide past me
in the staff section of the homeless shelter,
his intense gaze dressed in black
(a throwback to his monastery days),
too taciturn to say hello.
Now, he leans in close to tell me
the government is experimenting on twins
in locked rooms in the basement of the Pentagon.
And by the way, ten years ago
on Good Friday, he and the other monks
saw Jesus materialize in the incense smoke
while they were prostrate in the service.
His once-dark beard has gone grey,
and I can see pink-red scabs at its roots
like neon signs through a dirty bar window.
His intense silence has been replaced
by a flurry of blinking, grinning,
gesticulating, I-tell-you-whats.
Ive got wires
like a television.
Through my eyes
I can be seen
by government agents.
When Im asleep
I get my privacy.
I like to write
mystery stories
when I have time to myself.
I have special
skills and powers,
which the government
wants for itself.
This is why Im on constant
surveillance.
I cannot rest.
The demand on
my time is damn
near overwhelming at times.
It makes me crazy.
I know a man
who owns a bar
and it is really more of a
shrine to himself
framed photographs of himself
along side famous boxers
and actors and politicians
all over the walls
with newspaper clippings
of when he ran for mayor
and photos of himself crossing the finish line
of the New York Marathon
Im not sure how this guy happened
to have a camera at every
moment of his life
but
there it is
and hes apparently know a lot of
artists
because several portraits of himself also
adorn the place
he has this special deal:
if you get a brand of his face
on your arm
you will get a twenty percent
discount on drinks for
life
not free but
a twenty percent discount
the brand is the size of a
half dollar
this is what we have to be
proud of
in our
great civilization
and when listening to Sean Hannity,
one of the Republicans icons in punditry,
I hear him say to all veterans,
youre a great American.
then other people
later on his show
would say that he is a great American
and it becomes like a contest sometimes
where everyone who supports
Sean Hannity on his show
is calling each other a great American
and Im thinking:
he thanks veterans
because they fought in a war
and protected our country.
and Im thinking,
we thank people
for finding a loophole to legally kill people,
we thank people for going through hell
in a current war that we dont support
a war not defending our country
but killing our people nonetheless
Hell, people now arent even in a war
only Congress can declare a war
and we havent been in an actual war
since World War Two
but Im sure theyre great Americans
because they fought
in these President-proclaimed wars
yeah, Sean Hannity thanks veterans
because they fought in a war
and protected our country
but he also calls anyone a great American
only because they agree with him
you can elevate anyone to that tall pedastal
idolize them, call them a great American
as long as they support the Bush kakistocracy
hey, were Americans,
weve proclaimed ourselves to be the best
we dont idolize anyone
I think its time we all start thinking
the Sean Hannity way
and be great Americans again
Girl: gaping cavern of need, octopus arms flaying out
desperately for affection.
Boy: pure void, mimicking mocking mirror, moldable clay chameleon.
The parallel lines of Girl and Boy intersect arbitrarily.
Electric sparks fly as the two seeking substances collide.
Separate entities meld into a single identity.
Intertwining vine-limbs and alignment of internal ideologies,
Soul caressing, synchronize heartbeats, interwoven mind links.
Identity theft.
Boy caught stealing Girl from herself.
The embrace becomes a death grip.
With the mask of love-giver,
Leech Boy sucks greedily on his prey.
The idyllic lovers emulate Munks Death and the Maiden.
Gluttonous Girl is forced to see the hatefulness of her Need
As mirror lover mimics her affection starved cries, amplified.
Boy choked Girl with her own rope.
But she tore away, leaving behind her Need.
By day, shes a biology major and aspiring pre-med at University of Chicago, holding leadership positions on the Pre-Medical Students Association, Treasurer of the Classical Entertainment Society, Assistant Trainer at the gym, and Surgical Assistant. By night, she revels in the power and release of creating poems and poetic prose. As a child she composed fantasy stories, turning to free-flow, stream of conscious prose as she grew older. She has been published in various forms and has read her work at numerous poetry fests. For her, the writing process involves living deeply, contemplating experiences, and extracting the meaning. Instead of merely skimming the surface, she reaches towards the source, and through writing, heighten her senses, deepen her appreciation of aesthetics, and enhance her reception of the glory in existing as a sentient being.
The sacred moments of complete control, wielding pen in hand, electric synapses forming as the vessel connects to scroll, translating ineffable emotion into tangible transcription, saturating dictionary words with her own vibrancy. Writing spirals into a fascinating odyssey of self-exploration, uncovering her innate inner structure. As the pen hits paper, layers are penetrated. She hears the whispers of her soul.
Her mind becomes lucid to itself.
If you want to know my opinion
women should be worshiped
for God sake
think about it
Men sit and think about us
or should I say about it
and they continue to thrive
and we know it
We can sip wine
or take shots
carry the brat until term
and then sign the rest of our lives away
to everyone elses service
We join the corporate pool
not to think about production
but to keep the suits off our back
to become successful
and dont forget the money, honey
Meanwhile we pump our breasts
in the office ladies room
staining the new silk blouse
acrylic nails clicking on the buttons
and then we stop for a moment
to think about the small pink flowers
on a seersucker dress
that we wore when we were little girls
Migration,
Im taking my wooly words worth
and moving on home
Diggin the concrete, time to break my teeth
upon the ample edge of indifference
Im sitting with my pretty self
in the Santa Cruz Diner
where I was told in so many words
Hippies use side door
Just ordered a Jack Kerouac,
side of fries
twenty five and some scratch in my pocket
Menu, it says life is unpredictable,
eat dessert first
and I do
A fine line exists
Between love and hate.
A tenuous thread,
Delicate as a spider web,
These two emotions separates.
And when this fragile string is pluckd
The strength of the former love
Fuels the fire of the burning hate.
Tape NailsJessica Bechtold
My mom used to get her nails done,
I took Scotch tape
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No matter where you travel in Atlanta,
theres a Peachtree Street around the corner
with a Chic-Fil-A and a Starbucks
and another damn division title
for the Bobby Cox brigade.
Just give me 10 minutes to find you
alone in a room with no windows
naked, turning over past mistakes
in your head as you move closer
to another with me.
Its not a cycle, this feeling,
because its different every time
but similar to a spiral through history
or a track that falls back
and works its way up.
I have seen the war against my people
Telling the world what we believe
Cops with semi-automatics
Pointed ever at me
I have seen the tear gas clouds fill the streets
The screams of an innocent child
In pain
The black and blue brigades beat us
Till we look like them
Even when we are naked
The fires hoses pounding our skin
Every drop, like a rock
Up against the wall mother
Its all we can do
I have seen the gross fines
For those who pine
To be free
I have seen the spies
Inspecting every speck of dirt
To ascertain its worth
I have seen soldiers atop the White House
With rifles ready to snipe
Fingers ever itching
To pick off a hippie
I have seen the expulsions
For possessions of an herb
The narcs smashing down doors
I have seen cigarette corporations
Swimming in green
Their money and the lungs theyve ruined
I have seen the apathy towards them
The addictions, five packs a day
The villains left untouched
The victims left to rot
And the far lesser evil
Beaten into submission
-Washington D.C., fall, 2005
The tall mountains stand like castles,
in the red west,
The Sun gallops across the sky,
In its firey flight, on scarlet
wings, like a floating splendor
of burning hell.
Casting its volley of destruction.
The rushing bronze torch, fall behind
the mountains of tall castles.
I scraped a wall at work today, chipping nails and such.
No world event did circumvent my humble tools nudge.
The televisions death ray vision spoke of terror
bombing missions,
RapistÕs guilty plea admissions-motto of our times.
The world it went to shit today.
But my wall turned out just fine.
You looked no more
than 16 or 17,
and initially we
thought youd pissed yourself,
were just another drunk
staggering to ask for change,
as a damp patch
on your jeans spread.
But the outstretched
hand was begging help,
as you suddenly fell,
dropped 6 foot 12 years
to mumble for Mum.
Touch n go the paramedics said;
all other veins collapsed
youd stuck youre groin,
dug a little too deep.
We watched them
stretcher your dead body,
as that sirens whirrrrrr
swept all thoughts
all comfortable plans
to minds periphery,
where they occasionally,
still,
frame the incident................
make a byword of
egested matter
a cup from which an egg
is eaten an egg ingested
attempt to convince
supporting streetlights (hooded bulbs)
incite numbers (of sparrows) to walk
into you
for a while
it was easy
to hitch a ride home
with Matt and his mom
he shared my locker
but he had no
floor or shelf, only
one hook
to balance his books
it was a fair trade
we would laugh
in the backseat
about Rosencrantz
& Guildenstern Are Dead
and pretend to flip
a coin
heads...heads...heads...
but one day
I started having
play practice
and quit going
home at three oclock
I caught a ride
with my friend
Kortney, who had
a convertible
and smoked Marlboro Lights
as we pulled out
of the parking lot
she never offered me
one, I didnt smoke, but
she didnt know that
one day
as I watched her puff,
tossing her sun-baked hair
over her tan shoulder
I caught a look,
a mixture of boredom,
obligation and pity
and I decided
not to ask her again
and she never offered
for a few days
the drama teacher shuttled
me home, but
not wanting to see
that look in her eyes
I started saying I didnt
need a ride
and I walked the long way
so nobody would see me
cutting through fields
of dirt and mosquitoes
grasshoppers and feral flowers
I decided
I would rather walk
from now on
Would his hair have been black?
Would his eyes have been dark?
Or would they have been blue, like the sky?
Would blonde wisps have tickled his ears?
I listen to the machines, feel the cold metal on the bottoms of my feet.
Would his feet have run like the wind?
Would his legs have been long?
Or would they have been short, and sturdy, like his fathers?
Would his strong hands have worked hard?
I am nauseated, the room spins as I stare up at the ceiling.
Would he have been persistent?
Would he have overcome obstacles?
Or would he have tried to fade away, unseen, like his mother?
Would he have caved to the expectations?
I feel the tissue paper against my back.
I see the masked faces around me.
I swim in a sea of white and blue and sterilized instruments....
I cry and begin to mourn as my unborn son is torn from my body.
Ivy was warned to leave the Hindu Valley. She was a lost Christian mystic. She hid behind her sabbatical habit, Christian cross and priestly gown. Her age is unknown. Many Indians said she was 25 or 30 years of age. She was pretty as lotus flower with a slender Kali frame and shiny jet black milky silk hair. They claim she was a Greek or Turk, but nobody knows. My grandfather Ben met her one day back in June of 1962. She was buying candles from a hindu priest. She purchased a dozen of so. The hindu priest gave her the candles and refused her money. He shouted at her, Blessed spirit go away, may peace be with you. He threw white rice at her hair and face. She replied, Back, you are a pagan and a fool, I came for my holy tools, I will pray for you soul in the light of the true God comes to you. She walked out the door not paying any attention were she was going. Bingo, she bumped in to my grandfather Ben. She was sacred like a white rabbit ready to run. She dropped her candles on the poor poverty road. Ben replied I am so sorry, I did not see you coming. Ivy replied It is my fault, I must be going crazy with the heat. Ben replies Lets go for a drink at Adrimal Nelson Pub. He grabs her by her right slender hand and off they go. She walks in silent shock. He grabs a table and sits her down around the table. He orders a large gin and tonic pitcher. The elder bartender walks over and smiles at them. He pours them in two large slender glasses. He wipes his fore head and saysIf you need anything else I will be reading my race track paper inside the store room, where it is cool. Ben replies, Okay. Ivy grabs the class like a lost infant child, drinks it down in a flash. She stares at Ben and says Thank You. Ben replies You are welcome. Ivy replies back, You are kind gentlemen, I must leave know, my spirit is wanted in another room. Ben replies Another room? You must be going crazy with the heat, it can make you feel uneasy. Let me get you a wash cloth from behind the bar to wipe your sweatie forehead. Ben walks to the bar. A cold wind passes behind him. He feels dizzy. He turns to look back at the table. Ivy is gone. He walks towards the bar door. The Hindu Priest pushes him inside and smiles at him. They walk over to the table. A flower and a gold coin has been left behind with a napkin letter saying Thank You for your gentle kindness, I pray for you. The Hindu priest takes the coin, bows to Ben and leaves. Ben picks up the flower and Says until we meet again Ivy lotus, Amen.
Three bald tires leaning up against the side of a trailer, which is not the same as the Holy Trinity. Which is not the same as this woman tied up with packing tape then raped three times, then another piece over her mouth, then another sealing her nose.
The truth, which is only a weapon. The weapon, which is always something small and innocuous. Is always something bought at Wal-Mart, paid for with a credit card and, next to the tires, a hole punched through the skirting. A child hiding underneath, but always found. A child not hiding, but hidden.
Give him a name. Give the woman a setting. An alley, a doorway, a dead end street by the railroad tracks. A city, but not the one shes found in. A second story apartment filled with sunlight, almost warm. A girl sitting naked on the couch, says shes sixteen, says she told me this the night before but I dont remember, or I dont want to remember, or I just dont believe her.
And I was in bed with her, yes, and at some point I woke up alone. Found her on the living room floor with my roommates brother, the two of them wrapped up in a blanket, and she looked at me and smiled. Pulled the blanket back to invite me in, but I was tired. My head was pounding.
And of course the boy is found eventually, and then the mother, and the boyfriend has disappeared.
And her stepfather calls me on a Tuesday night, asks if shes with me, and I have no idea what he knows. I have no idea how the hell he got my number. And I tell him that I havent seen her for weeks, which is the truth, and then I hang up and, when the phone rings again, its the police. A sergeant whose name I dont catch, and she asks the same questions as the stepfather, and I give the same answers.
And my roommates brother is gone again, back down to North Carolina to stay with his parents, and a fetus is found trapped in one of the grates in one of the tanks at the water treatment plant. I cant remember how she came to be here that night. I cant remember if were still at war.
And she shows up at my door three days later, asks if she can come in, if I have a beer. She sits on my bed, flipping through a stack of CDs. I tell her that her stepfather called, that the cops called, and she nods.
What the hell is all over your arms? I ask, and she pushes the sleeves up, says Magic marker. I see smiley faces, frowny faces, a cross, an anarchy sign, and she stands up and takes her shirt off, isnt wearing a bra, and I see that someone has drawn targets on her tips, has used her nipples for the bullseyes. I see WHORE written across her stomach, doodles all over her back as she spins around slowly. Words and pictures disappear into the waistband of her pants and I ask How far down does it go? and she takes them off, no panties, and I say Jesus Christ.
The writing is everywhere. Stubble has ben drawn on her legs, hands have been drawn on her ass, FUCK ME written up the inside of one thigh, SLUT up the other. Eyes look at me from her pubic hair.
I was staying with some guys, she says. They kept giving me booze. Kept giving me pills. I passed out last night, and she raises her arms out like shes being crucified, stands naked in front of me. I woke up this morning like this. Everyone was gone.
You had clothes on last night, and you woke up naked? I ask, and she nods.
Im pretty sure they took turns fucking me. She gestures with her hands. It hurts.
And I look at her. I look away. Its the end of May, dusk, the bedroom windows open. Kids are laughing in the street. A car passes by with its stereo up loud, Zeppelin, The Song Remains the Same, and the boyfriend is still on the run. The trailer has been roped off with police tape. The windows have all been broken. The father has asked to be left alone.
And she stands in front of me, naked, near tears, and I pick up her shirt and hand it to her. Can think of nothing to say but Get dressed, and what happens is that a man has been brought in for questioning, but it wont change anything. It wont remove the tape, or the sock that was found stuffed in the womans mouth, and it sure as fuck wont bring her back to life, but its all any of us have and so we embrace it. We act like justice exists. Its such a simple form of blindness.
Id like to be
Under the sea
To see the fish go swim,
Id like to squish
A jelly fish
And then let go of him.
Id like to grab
A soft-shelled crab
And take him for a walk
Id like to hurdle
Over a turtle
And teach dolphins to talk.
Id like to see
A manatee
And then go play by him,
Id like to do
All of these things
If only I could swim!
and as time went by my love grew stronger than before
but I never dreamt Id get what I was wishing for
so dont be afraid
to let your feelings show
because our love has stayed
and I wont let you go
in love I abide
for to love I am bound
and Ill stay by your side
with this love that Ive found
well you parted all the people when you walked in the room
when i saw your ice blue eyes i knew you would be mine soon
but i couldnt understand how i fell for you so fast
and i only hoped our feelings for each other would last
well do you believe that fate could make us feel this way
because i know that a love like this is gonna stay
so dont be afraid
to let your feelings show
because our love has stayed
and I wont let you go
in love I abide
for to love I am bound
and Ill stay by your side
with this love that Ive found
and as time went by my love grew stronger than before
but I never dreamt Id get what I was wishing for
so dont be afraid
to let your feelings show
because our love has stayed
and I wont let you go
in love I abide
for to love I am bound
and Ill stay by your side
with this love that Ive found
I mean, you saw signs on the walls and
in the streets in Chinese, but you understood
how to get around and what to do.
I swear, what I remember most are the
little differences,
like McDonalds, I got an
egg McMuffin because Ive seen signs
in French for Oeuf McMuffins.
So when I ordered one in Beijing, I got a
hamburger bun for a muffin (egg McHamburger?),
and it was covered in ketchup and mayo,
I swear to God it was fucking drowning in the shit;
I wiped some of it off with my index finger
and chalked it up to knowing the little differences.
Like in Shanghai we went to Starbucks (because
even in China, theres still one on every corner,
& John said I liked white chocolate frappucinos,
so Jim asked if they had white chocolate.
The woman behind the counter said,
No, we only have black chocolate.
(Youd never hear that in the United States...)
Knowing that a good part of China lives in squalor,
we saw that everyone hung their clothing to dry.
Jim said Chinad have to build a ton of new plants
just to supply power to these dryers that people
cant afford, so clothing dryers dont exist.
China has no Medicare or government health care plans
(dont say the United States is free of government intervention...)
so people save their money for accidents. Its a good thing,
because we saw rickety bamboo stalks used
for ladders & scaffolding for Chinamen
for repairing & cleaning high rises.
But you have to remember these differences,
I mean, a stop sign is still a red octagon
even if you dont know the language its in,
even Coke cans print both languages on them,
But you know, the funny thing about China
are the little differences.
you cant say a word
you cant move an inch
cause you cant break the rules
i know what to say
i know what to do
and it sets you on fire
i have to play
on what you like
to see what you can take
and i walk out on to that tight rope
to watch you move and shake
and now were both stuck there
but here is where you quake
but you cant fall from this wire
we walk a thin line
in our tight rope affair
theres no net when youre high
so you better beware
do you know your way down
when youre in making your moves
and balanced in
your tight rope affair
when youre up on the wire
you feel the fire
and you feel the fear
but youre filled with desire
you want to go higher
whenever were near
what will transpire
now that were here
what can we do to make us right
when we gracefully step
on the paper-thin wire
were balancing high
we look to the ground
see a circus of clowns
as were touching the sky
now we both tightrope walk
and I wonder why
why we cant bring it all into the light
were walking a fine line
in our tight rope affair
yeah, you try to act sly
when I know a part of yous scared
but you know youll will try
only if you can bear
what might happen
in our tight rope affair
you balance on this twine
in our tight rope affair
cause I know youll be mine
yeah, be with me if youd dare
this love is divine
but it cannot compare
to this rush
from this tight rope affair
you know how it feels
in our tight rope affair
our time is surreal
and our bond is rare
we sense this appeal
and it makes us aware
of the risks
in our tight rope affair
nothing ventured
nothing gained
nothing changes
nothing stays the same
but you go your way
I go mine
maybe one day
we will find
what we need in life
I watch the ashes from your cigarette
fall to the ground and
I think this fire will die down
I think I now see what is happening here
between us and
I have to say good bye
nothing ventured
nothing gained
nothing changes
nothing stays the same
so you go your way
I go mine
maybe one day
we will find
what we need in life
I cant stay bitter and lonely and restless anymore and
I cant be here with you
I see the red in your eyes and it scares me half to death and
Ill take this road alone
nothing ventured
nothing gained
nothing changes
nothing stays the same
you go your way
and I go mine
maybe one day
we will find
what we need in life
thought about
getting a rib or two
removed
like Cher
but I figured
theyve got to
be there for
something
and hey, thats
just going
too far
Nick DiSpoldo, Small Press Review (on Children, Churches and Daddies,& #148; April 1997)
Kuypers is the widely-published poet of particular perspectives and not a little existential rage, but she does not impose her personal or artistic agenda on her magazine. CC+D is a provocative potpourri of news stories, poetry, humor, art and the dirty underwear& #148; of politics.
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Debra Purdy Kong, writer, British Columbia, Canada
I like the magazine a lot. I like the spacious lay-out and the different coloured pages and the variety of writers styles. Too many literary magazines read as if everyone graduated from the same course. We need to collect more voices like these and send them everywhere.
Ed Hamilton, writer
#85 (of Children, Churches and Daddies) turned out well. I really enjoyed the humor section, especially the test score answers. And, the cup-holder story is hilarious. Im not a big fan of poetry - since much of it is so hard to decipher - but I was impressed by the work here, which tends toward the straightforward and unpretentious.
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Write to Scars Publications to submit poetry, prose and artwork to Children, Churches and Daddies literary magazine, or to inquire about having your own chapbook, and maybe a few reviews like these.
Jim Maddocks, GLASGOW, via the Internet Ill be totally honest, of the material in Issue (either 83 or 86 of Children, Churches and Daddies) the only ones I really took to were Kuypers. TRYING was so simple but most truths are, arent they?
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C Ra McGuirt, Editor, The Penny Dreadful Review (on Children, Churches and Daddies)
CC&D is obviously a labor of love ... I just have to smile when I go through it. (Janet Kuypers) uses her space and her poets to best effect, and the illos attest to her skill as a graphic artist.
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Mark Blickley, writer The precursor to the magazine title (Children, Churches and Daddies) is very moving. Scars& #148; is also an excellent prose poem. I never really thought about scars as being a form of nostalgia. But in the poem it also represents courage and warmth. I look forward to finishing her book.
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MIT Vegetarian Support Group (VSG)
functions:
* To show the MIT Food Service that there is a large community of vegetarians at MIT (and other health-conscious people) whom they are alienating with current menus, and to give positive suggestions for change.
* To exchange recipes and names of Boston area veg restaurants
* To provide a resource to people seeking communal vegetarian cooking
* To provide an option for vegetarian freshmen
We also have a discussion group for all issues related to vegetarianism, which currently has about 150 members, many of whom are outside the Boston area. The group is focusing more toward outreach and evolving from what it has been in years past. We welcome new members, as well as the opportunity to inform people about the benefits of vegetarianism, to our health, the environment, animal welfare, and a variety of other issues.
Gary, Editor, The Road Out of Town (on the Children, Churches and Daddies Web Site) I just checked out the site. It looks great.
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Dusty Dog Reviews: These poems document a very complicated internal response to the feminine side of social existence. And as the book proceeds the poems become increasingly psychologically complex and, ultimately, fascinating and genuinely rewarding.
John Sweet, writer (on chapbook designs)
Visuals were awesome. Theyve got a nice enigmatic quality to them. Front cover reminds me of the Roman sculptures of angels from way back when. Loved the staggered tire lettering, too. Way cool.
(on Hope Chest in the Attic& #148;)
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Dusty Dog Reviews: She opens with a poem of her own devising, which has that wintry atmosphere demonstrated in the movie version of Boris Pasternaks Doctor Zhivago. The atmosphere of wintry white and cold, gloriously murderous cold, stark raging cold, numbing and brutalizing cold, appears almost as a character who announces to his audience, Wisdom occurs only after a laboriously magnificent disappointment.& #148; Alas, that our Dusty Dog for mat cannot do justice to Ms. Kuypers very personal layering of her poem across the page.
Cheryl Townsend, Editor, Impetus (on Children, Churches and Daddies) The new CC&D looks absolutely amazing. Its a wonderful lay-out, looks really professional - all you need is the glossy pages. Truly impressive AND the calendar, too. Cant wait to actually start reading all the stuff inside.. Wanted to just say, it looks good so far!!!
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Fithian Press, Santa Barbara, CA
Indeed, theres a healthy balance here between wit and dark vision, romance and reality, just as theres a good balance between words and graphics. The work shows brave self-exploration, and serves as a reminder of mortality and the fragile beauty of friendship.
Mark Blickley, writer
The precursor to the magazine title (Children, Churches and Daddies) is very moving. Scars& #148; is also an excellent prose poem. I never really thought about scars as being a form of nostalgia. But in the poem it also represents courage and warmth. I look forward to finishing her book.
You Have to be Published to be Appreciated.
Do you want to be heard? Contact Children, Churches and Daddies about book or chapbook publishing. These reviews can be yours. Scars Publications, attention J. Kuypers. Were only an e-mail away. Write to us.
Brian B. Braddock, Writer (on 1996 Children, Churches and Daddies) I passed on a copy to my brother who is the director of the St. Camillus AIDS programs. We found (Children, Churches and Daddies) obvious dedication along this line admirable.
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The Center for Renewable Energy and Sustainable Technology
The Solar Energy Research & Education Foundation (SEREF), a non-profit organization based in Washington, D.C., established on Earth Day 1993 the Center for Renewable Energy and Sustainable Technology (CREST) as its central project. CRESTs three principal projects are to provide:
* on-site training and education workshops on the sustainable development interconnections of energy, economics and environment;
* on-line distance learning/training resources on CRESTs SOLSTICE computer, available from 144 countries through email and the Internet;
* on-disc training and educational resources through the use of interactive multimedia applications on CD-ROM computer discs - showcasing current achievements and future opportunities in sustainable energy development.
The CREST staff also does on the road& #148; presentations, demonstrations, and workshops showcasing its activities and available resources.
For More Information Please Contact: Deborah Anderson
dja@crest.org or (202) 289-0061
Brian B. Braddock, Writer (on 1996 Children, Churches and Daddies) I passed on a copy to my brother who is the director of the St. Camillus AIDS programs. We found (Children, Churches and Daddies) obvious dedication along this line admirable.
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Dorrance Publishing Co., Pittsburgh, PA
Hope Chest in the Attic& #148; captures the complexity of human nature and reveals startling yet profound discernments about the travesties that surge through the course of life. This collection of poetry, prose and artwork reflects sensitivity toward feminist issues concerning abuse, sexism and equality. It also probes the emotional torrent that people may experience as a reaction to the delicate topics of death, love and family.
Chain Smoking& #148; depicts the emotional distress that afflicted a friend while he struggled to clarify his sexual ambiguity. Not only does this thought-provoking profile address the plight that homosexuals face in a homophobic society, it also characterizes the essence of friendship. The room of the rape& #148; is a passionate representation of the suffering rape victims experience. Vivid descriptions, rich symbolism, and candid expressions paint a shocking portrait of victory over the gripping fear that consumes the soul after a painful exploitation.
want a review like this? contact scars about getting your own book published.
Paul Weinman, Writer (on 1996 Children, Churches and Daddies) Wonderful new direction (Children, Churches and Daddies has) taken - great articles, etc. (especially those on AIDS). Great stories - all sorts of hot info!
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Okay, nilla wafer. Listen up and listen good. How to save your life. Submit, or Ill have to kill you.
Okay, butt-munch. Tough guy. This is how to win the editors over.
Carlton Press, New York, NY: HOPE CHEST IN THE ATTIC is a collection of well-fashioned, often elegant poems and short prose that deals in many instances, with the most mysterious and awesome of human experiences: love... Janet Kuypers draws from a vast range of experiences and transforms thoughts into lyrical and succinct verse... Recommended as poetic fare that will titillate the palate in its imagery and imaginative creations.
You Have to be Published to be Appreciated.
Dorrance Publishing Co., Pittsburgh, PA: Hope Chest in the Attic& #148; captures the complexity of human nature and reveals startling yet profound discernments about the travesties that surge through the course of life. This collection of poetry, prose and artwork reflects sensitivity toward feminist issues concerning abuse, sexism and equality. It also probes the emotional torrent that people may experience as a reaction to the delicate topics of death, love and family. Chain Smoking& #148; depicts the emotional distress that afflicted a friend while he struggled to clarify his sexual ambiguity. Not only does this thought-provoking profile address the plight that homosexuals face in a homophobic society, it also characterizes the essence of friendship. The room of the rape& #148; is a passionate representation of the suffering rape victims experience. Vivid descriptions, rich symbolism, and candid expressions paint a shocking portrait of victory over the gripping fear that consumes the soul after a painful exploitation.
Dusty Dog Reviews, CA (on knife): These poems document a very complicated internal response to the feminine side of social existence. And as the book proceeds the poems become increasingly psychologically complex and, ultimately, fascinating and genuinely rewarding.
Debra Purdy Kong, writer, British Columbia, Canada (on Children, Churches and Daddies): I like the magazine a lot. I like the spacious lay-out and the different coloured pages and the variety of writers styles. Too many literary magazines read as if everyone graduated from the same course. We need to collect more voices like these and send them everywhere.
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Okay, its this simple: send me published or unpublished poetry, prose or art work (do not send originals), along with a bio, to us - then sit around and wait... Pretty soon youll hear from the happy people at cc&d that says (a) Your work sucks, or (b) This is fancy crap, and were gonna print it. Its that simple!
Hope Chest in the Attic is a 200 page, perfect-bound book of 13 years of poetry, prose and art by Janet Kuypers. Its a really classy thing, if you know what I mean. We also have a few extra sopies of the 1999 book Rinse and Repeat& #148;, the 2001 book Survive and Thrive& #148;, the 2001 books Torture and Triumph& #148; and (no so) Warm and Fuzzy& #148;,
which all have issues of cc&d crammed into one book. And you can have either one of these things at just five bucks a pop if you just contact us and tell us you saw this ad space. Its an offer you cant refuse...
Mark Blickley, writer: The precursor to the magazine title (Children, Churches and Daddies) is very moving. Scars& #148; is also an excellent prose poem. I never really thought about scars as being a form of nostalgia. But in the poem it also represents courage and warmth. I look forward to finishing the book.
Do you want to be heard? Contact Children, Churches and Daddies about book and chapbook publishing. These reviews can be yours. Scars Publications, attention J. Kuypers - you can write for yourself or you can write for an audience. Its your call...
Children, Churches and Daddies. It speaks for itself.
Dusty Dog Reviews (on Without You): She open with a poem of her own devising, which has that wintry atmosphere demonstrated in the movie version of Boris Pasternaks Doctor Zhivago. The atmosphere of wintry white and cold, gloriously murderous cold, stark raging cold, numbing and brutalizing cold, appears almost as a character who announces to his audience, Wisdom occurs only after a laboriously magnificent disappointment.& #148; Alas, that our Dusty Dog for mat cannot do justice to Ms. Kuypers very personal layering of her poem across the page.
Children, Churches and Daddies. It speaks for itself.
Fithian Press, Santa Barbara, CA: Indeed, theres a healthy balance here between wit and dark vision, romance and reality, just as theres a good balance between words and graphics. The work shows brave self-exploration, and serves as a reminder of mortality and the fragile beauty of friendship.
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