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Volume 198, July 2009

The Unreligious, Non-Family-Oriented Literary and Art Magazine
Internet ISSN 1555-1555

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the boss lady’s editorial

A Socialist by Any Other Name Smells the Same
Written 07/03/09 (this article was submitted to The Chicago Tribune 07/04/09)
    While we were out today, I saw the Business section of the Chicago Tribune (Friday, July 3 2009, Section 1 Page 29). We decided to read an article on the front page of this business section by David Greising because of the ludicrous title “Activist, Liberal Fall Short of ‘Socialist’” to his story. We saw this headline, and we agreed we should read it aloud and see if it is accurate, or if this is another liberal media outlet forgetting that socialist policies are not creeping into our country with President Barrack Obama, but that he has opened the gates to welcome any socialist policy, while claiming that it’s not socialism because “it is what’s best for our country right now.”
    In light of economic hardships, people ask their government to solve their problems for themselves. This country has done that for over eighty years, asked the government to step in to save us from ourselves, and we have welcomed more laws. Things like having the government mandate that seat belts or air bags are required in automobiles is actually a socialist policy, you know. So I read these Greising statements line by line, phrase by phrase, from this David Greising article, and disagreeing with every single unsubstantiated assertion he made.
    David Greising’s article “Activist, Liberal Fall Short of ‘Socialist’” tried to make the case that President Barrack Obama is not doing things that are socialistic, but he outlines in his article point by point all of the socialist things President Barrack Obama is doing. Allow me to explain, line by line.
    I started with the first sentence. “”Socialism’ has been a favorite and ridiculous invective hurled at President Barrack Obama almost since he took over from George W. Bush—the president who nationalized a large chunk of the financial sector.” The opening sentence doesn’t prove that Obama is not a socialist, but that George W. Bush even started socialist policies. President Barrack Obama has just magnified the socialist moves the country is making.
    Okay, let’s go the second sentence... “Obama has bailed out the auto industry...” to keep auto industries from failing. Well, that sounds like a socialist policy to me. (Refresh your memory on the definition of socialism, and you’ll see that’s all his policies are.) Sentence number three? “He has proposed a national health insurance program that, to some, contains elements of socialized medicine.” (Do I have to explain how this one reflects socialism, if it even mentions it in the article?)
     I then read the next line from this article, stating that all Americans can feel safe to celebrate the 4th of July “knowing that we absolutely do not have our first “red” President of the United States.”
    Really? From everything you have outlined so far in this article, you are reminding me that our current president is the closest thing we have to a socialist we’ve ever seen.
    “OK, so Obama sees an activist role for government,” Greising then writes. Well yes I suppose Obama does. But the American government and its philosophical foundation, is not supposed to take an activist role. That’s not its job. But Greising also then states, “...government policy can be used to shape industrial behavior” which, as far as I know, is a socialist philosophy or doctrine.
    Urgh, it is getting tedious going through this article sentence by sentence, dissecting all of the socialist remarks from David Greising. But as I read this article, I found that not only was he calling these Obama socialist policies not socialistic, but then he would go on to make unfounded socialistic assertions in his story.
    Greising mentioned that after “[Obama] invested government money in GM and Chrysler”. (I didn’t know the government had money, I thought it was the people’s money.) Obama only “reluctantly” did this (how good of the President, to state that he reluctantly chose the socialistic path – but he chose it nonetheless). Because the government is now the “owner” of these corporations, he “essentially fired the head of GM, Richard Wagoner.”
    How do you “essentially” fire someone?
    I think that was before we created the “car czar”. (What the Hell is that? These “czars” and their associated bureaucracies are just another excuse to have more government patronage jobs with fancy titles that we taxpayers have to pay for? Oh yeah, there’s also the newly created “pay czar” to investigate the “fairness” of CEO compensation packages.) And Obama says he made these choices “reluctantly” – but tell me the last time a temporary solution imposed by the government was actually temporary? Every law or change the government has made that was supposed to be a temporary solution to a problem has become permanent.
    Give the government some power, they will never give it back – and will do everything in their power to take more.
    Greising then mentions that Obama “shook hands with Hugo Chavez” (I’m not sure what to take from that Obama - Chavez interaction. But Greising used it as an example of what right wing pundits and those who threaten Obama with the Socialist nametag use to stoke anti-Obama rhetoric).
    The next sentence reflected the title of the article: “Activist, yes, Liberal, yes. But socialist? Come on.”
    Well, looking at the evidence Greising has brought up so far in this article, I don’t think the “come on” reply to the socialist question is appropriate. I think Greising’s sentence should probably read more like this: “Activist, yes, Liberal, yes. But socialist? Frighteningly, probably yes.”
    President Obama even planned to spend his 4th of July in the most American of all places: Communist Russia. I know it used to be the “Union of Soviet Socialist Republics,” but Greising wrote that Obama planned to head “to Moscow to visit a country still cleaning up from the wreckage of full-fledged socialism” (um, the last time every schoolchild checked, Russia was a communist country. Thanks for the heads-up that Russia is only a socialist country, Greising. Thanks.) But I’ve been there and have seen what Greising calls socialism and I learned was communism in Russia, and want no part of it for this country (isn’t that what the Cold War was about? We were stemming the Red Tide of Communism, not the chartreuse tide of socialism.).
    Greising then states that for many “clear thinkers with a firmer role in the belief of free markets than Obama have, any discussion about Obama’s “socialism” merely clouds the important public policy discussions that need to take place.”
    Good point, Greising (finally). Calling our president a socialist doesn’t solve any problems, but look at Obama’s policies for what they are – and you will realize how un-American these decisions are. This is only the first step in realizing what America’s role should be in economic times like these.
    Does that mean that Obama should have let the big names in the auto industry fail? Possibly. Does that sound cruel? Possibly. But like how alcoholics have to hit rock bottom before they can get better, oftentimes hitting rock bottom is what you have to do before you want start to climb to the top again.

This editorial is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivs 2.5 License.

Janet Kuypers
Editor In Chief

prose

the meat and potatoes stuff

The Basement
Mel Waldman
    The 18-year-old boy opened the creaky door, flicked on the switch, and descended the stairs to the basement. The lights were dim and he could barely see the steps below, but he had forgotten something important, he believed. He had to find it now. At the bottom of the stairs, he pulled a string and the room lit up. To his left were three mirrors. Looking in the first mirror, he saw nothing and his soul screamed silently. Inside the second one, he discovered what had happened to him, wept in despair and then rushed slowly to the third mirror which contained his future in this tomblike waste land.

BIO
Mel Waldman, Ph. D.
Dr. Mel Waldman is a licensed New York State psychologist and a candidate in Psychoanalysis at the Center for Modern Psychoanalytic Studies (CMPS). He is also a poet, writer, artist, and singer/songwriter. After 9/11, he wrote 4 songs, including “Our Song,” which addresses the tragedy. His stories have appeared in numerous literary reviews and commercial magazines including HAPPY, SWEET ANNIE PRESS, POETICA, CHILDREN, CHURCHES AND DADDIES and DOWN IN THE DIRT (SCARS PUBLICATIONS), PBW, NEW THOUGHT JOURNAL, THE BROOKLYN LITERARY REVIEW, HARDBOILED, HARDBOILED DETECTIVE, DETECTIVE STORY MAGAZINE, ESPIONAGE, and THE SAINT. He is a past winner of the literary GRADIVA AWARD in Psychoanalysis and was nominated for a PUSHCART PRIZE in literature. Periodically, he has given poetry and prose readings and has appeared on national T.V. and cable T.V. He is a member of Mystery Writers of America, Private Eye Writers of America, American Mensa, Ltd., and the American Psychological Association. He is currently working on a mystery novel inspired by Freud’s case studies. Who Killed the Heartbreak Kid?, a mystery novel, was published by iUniverse in February 2006. It can be purchased at www.iuniverse.com/bookstore/, www.bn.com, at , and other online bookstores or through local bookstores. Some of his poems have appeared online in THE JERUSALEM POST. Dark Soul of the Millennium, a collection of plays and poetry, was published by World Audience, Inc. in January 2007. It can be purchased at www.worldaudience.org, www.bn.com, at , and other online bookstores or through local bookstores. A 7-volume short story collection was published by World Audience, Inc. in May 2007 and can also be purchased online at the above-mentioned sites. I AM A JEW, a book in which Dr. Waldman examines his Jewish identity through memoir, essays, short stories, poetry, and plays, was published by World Audience, Inc. in January 2008.

Emotionally Disturbed, art by Melissa Reid

poetry

the passionate stuff

Thirteen Seconds
Janet Kuypers
a woman from my town
jumped from a bridge
there was a creek nearby
ten feet wide, two feet deep
and
and I didn’t know her
but we thought about it
her jumping to her death
and we calculated
at the height she jumped from
at her speed while she was falling
it took her thirteen seconds
to fall to her death
thirteen seconds
she thought
for thirteen seconds
before she died
and the thing is,
she might fall
through the nearby tree branches
and we thought about that
the silver maple trees
might hold her back,
slow her down
well, she hit those trees
and they didn’t save her
so this is what I think of
those thirteen seconds,
give or take
that’s what I think of

art by Eric Bonholtzer

Ten Minutes
Janet Kuypers
I watched a cartoon
where a boy was caught shoplifting
he stole a game for himself
and he made up to his mom for it
by getting a picture of himself in a frame
and his mom was so proud
and all I could think of
was that I stole something once
and my parents made me feel like hell for it
and I wasn’t getting a game for myself
I was getting them Christmas presents
everyone made me feel
as if I had to spend
as much money as everyone else
and everyone else had a job
and was an adult
and I was a kid
and I was twelve
and I had fifteen people to buy presents for
but I was getting THEM presents
because they made me feel
like I had to be more than an adult
to compete with them
to compete for them
and it never won
and I never won
and I’m still not winning
so is this part of why I’m so messed up?
so is this why I’m an overachiever
so is this why I do so much
so is this why I feel the need
to always succeed?
I always do,
but is it always at my cost?

Jesus Under Glass, Oaxaca image from Brian Hosey & Lauren Braden

Jesus and How
He Must Have Felt
Michael Lee Johnson
Staggering
up the stairs
after an all night drunk-
I thought of Jesus
and how he must have felt
after his resurrection
dragging
his holy body
up that endless
staircase
spiraling toward
heaven.

Jesus is Lord, image by Peter Bates
whose art can also be seen at pixelpost

grassbabies, art by Christine Sorich

The Vandals
David Waite
we walked in tripped in,
lay down on the velvet couches,
took off shirts and shorts, five kids in the hot tub
tired and sweaty and wasted
sitting around in our underwear.
our clothes hung limp on timbers
stretched across the balcony,
we laughed though we knew we were sinking.
in the morning
the sun raked my body
lying naked in a single bed.
the others slept on, I head one’s
slow, untroubled breath.
head still reeling,
walked out the glass doors
to sit and watch the dawn crawling,
my feet wet in the tall grass.
a white dog laying down beside me
to put his head in my lap.
and though we were misanthropes, laughing as we burned,
we were very lucky bastards
soon to drive on and leave this shame behind us.

DES 5K, art by Üzeyir Lokman ÇAYCI

prose

the meat and potatoes stuff

The Everlasting Immortality of Kevin P. Johns
Skookum Maguire

Squeeze
S. William Hepner

Stairway to Heaven
Warren McPherson
    When I was nine years old I believed my religion was the only true religion and that come Judgement Day, as I rode that escalator to the clouds where I was sure to find an eternity of happiness in heaven after having lived a life of sin on Earth that was technically erased by an act of repentance on my death bed, I would see all other believers of all other faiths free falling from those white fluffy clouds into the fiery red pits of Hell below. As I went up, up, up, they came raining down all around.
    As I got on in years I realized my vision of the after-life was a little simple and just a tad cruel. I formed a newer vision (although only slightly different) in which I still pictured myself riding up the big escalator, but now instead of falling out of the sky and plummeting into the inner-bowels of the earth where they would most assuredly receive an everlasting array of unspeakable horrors in Hell; all those religious fuck-ups were crammed onto one big escalator like mine, except going down; To hell, where they would of course reside for all of eternity as tortured souls.
    By the time I left for college I was already questioning the religion into which I was raised. Actually, I was a little beyond questioning and more into the area of disowning. (It really is a fine-line keeping those two apart.) I decided college was the place I could begin to really study alternatives. I took Jewish Studies 101 with Professor Zipperstein my first quarter. Within a few weeks my after-life vision was altered. I was still cruisin’ up on the escalator, but now the hell-bound were sliding down a big ol’ slide. At first I figured “Hey, the powers-that-be probably want all those losers to have a little fun before their souls reach Hades were they will slowly rot and eventually burn in Satan’s fire, only to be continually resurrected so the torment can be repeated indefinitely.” It is only now that I realize with each alteration in my vision of the after-life I was slowly taking steps towards beginning a full-blown religious epiphany.
    One day, after a Jewish Studies class viewing of “Schindler’s List”, I manifested a new vision; and this time it was scary. I was one of the damned riding the slide down to Hell. What if I had been deluding myself all these years and Catholicism was not the real escalator ride to heaven it had promised to be? Could it be that one of those other jerk religions was going to watch yours truly “slip slidin’” away on Satan’s Slope as they rode the “Stairway to Heaven.”
    Professor Zipperstein explained to all us naîveté that every religion thought they were going to be riding that escalator. Jews called themselves “the chosen people” for Christ’s sake. And man, as far as organized religions went they sure had their shit together. I really empathized and admired them for their tenacity and durability throughout the ages. Plus, they practically owned Hollywood.
    And then it all started to make sense, I was Jewish. For some unexplainable reason I had not eaten pork in years. I loved Mel Brooks’s movies. (I must have seen Spaceballs about a million times.) And I had always been against Nazism. My eyes were suddenly opened and I had what alcoholics refer to as a moment of clarity. I knew in my heart of hearts that I was one of the “chosen.” All the “heaven or hell” inner conflict was not a doubt of my true being, but rather a result of a loss of faith in the religion I had been dealt. I knew I had to make a change.
    But like most epiphanies, the answer did not come so easily. Even if I was a “chosen person”, or decided I wanted to convert to Judaism there were still things I felt weird about accepting as truth. I would have to resolve that all Mormons are going to Hell because they were, by no fault of their own, not the “chosen people.” And, sure, I know there are a zillion Buddhists out there and how can that many people be wrong, but I’m sorry, they’re all going to Hell. (I guess that is what makes Hell hell; all the people.)
    But why? The Buddhists are good folk. Just because they are not the “chosen people” they are going to go spend the rest of time in the most vile of other worlds? It was bad enough they had to live in India and China while they were on Earth. The Mormons are different, they are going to Hell because they are a bunch of in-bred cultists with a shoddy religion that is about as stalwart as an origami crane, and I can’t help them. (Even the Buddhists would agree with me here.)
    The more I thought about religion on those long lonely nights when I was the only soul awake the less I started to question the availabilities and the more I started to question the institution itself.
    What is religion and why do people need it so? Webster’s defines religion as:
    1. people’s beliefs and opinions concerning the existence, nature, and worship of a deity or deities, and divine involvement in the universe and human life
    2. a particular institutionalized or personal system of beliefs and practices relating to the divine
    3. a set of strongly held beliefs, values, and attitudes that somebody lives by
    4. an object, practice, cause, or activity that somebody is completely devoted to or obsessed by
    5. life as a monk or a nun, especially in the Roman Catholic Church

    After five religious studies classes and many sleepless nights of soul-searching, I deduced that people need religion to fill the gaps in their lives that cannot be filled with real, physical materials. Religion is used to answer all the questions that people cannot otherwise answer on their own. You’ve seen it a million times:
    Person 1: Why did that happen?
    Person 2: I don’t know. I think it was because of God.
    Person 1: Oh. You know, I think you’re right.
    Person 2: Let’s build a temple to him.
    Person 1: Okay. Let me get my purse.
    Well, I had a ton of questions no one could answer. Actually I really only had one, but it was a doozy: Why can’t I sleep at night? Even the great Judaism couldn’t answer that bad boy!
    Now, instead of throwing religion aside as a ridiculous manifestation Man created because he is weak and needs some form of justification and explanation, whether it be viable or lousy, for all occurrences and actions; I went the other way and, even though the greatest of religions could not answer my query, embraced religion. After all, when all is said and done I am still but a man. A tired man.
    And so, I decided to start my own religion.
    Around the peripheral would be the same old run of the mill “Don’t kill, Do good” type bullshit that you already know so I won’t bore you with at this time. But at the core of the faith would be the more recent eternal question of “Why can’t I sleep?” My followers and I would pray to a God for the answers. He would be the God of sleep and all other things important. An all-encompassing type deity. But most importantly, sleep-encompassing.
    I thought I would have a lot of success with my new religion. I marketed to the ignorant and lazy, figuring that lazy people are less likely to work to try and find the answers and would more readily accept my answer of “...because of God.” I also noticed the more ignorant a person is the more religious said person tends to be. As luck would have it most ignorant people were lazy, and vice-versa; so I had myself quite the little demographic already established. The first truly miraculous act of my God.
    One could pray to my God for answers to all the tough questions. Like “Why can’t the teams I bet on ever cover the spread?” or “Why can’t we travel in time?” People needed a God they could ask about possibly stopping mysterious bodily oozes; they needed an entity they could pray to to help them exact revenge on their enemies. It was a long time coming, but we finally had him.
    Being the creator of this new religion I was yoked with a tremendous amount of new responsibility. People wanted me to make appearances, write scripture, talk to our God. It was difficult keeping up. I started to have no problems sleeping at night. In fact, my insomnia problem seemed to disappear. It was a miracle, my religion worked!
    I enjoyed the sleep, but did there have to be so much toil involved? I don’t mean to sound like an ingrate, but why does there always have to be a price to pay for anything you receive from God. Hell, I created my own God and even he wanted 40% off the top. The disciples needed more and more each day, I couldn’t come up with a good name, and I’m not gonna lie to you the work just got too consuming for yours truly. The religion was hard, so I quit.
    The insomnia came back.
    Some might look at my religion and think it a failure. Ah, but that was quite the contrary. My God responded to my prayers and gave me the answer to my most penetrating of questions. It is through meaningless labor that we find peaceful slumber. The fact that my God’s actions ended up killing the religion; some might call that ironic. I like to call it, well, ironic...so what! It doesn’t change the fact I’ve been given divine knowledge.
    The truth is that having to actually do labor is just not appealing to people of my generation. Free, easy answers; that is what my religion was all about! Hell, they don’t even have to be free; I’ll pay $5.95 for a bottle of whatever if it’s going to give me answers. The fact of the matter is if you’re a motivated, hard-working type who is looking to get into the religion starting business there is a whole group of us out here that need answers and are more than willing not to do any work to get them. Don’t think it’s feasible? Brigham Young got a university named after him; put that in your pipe and smoke it!
    After my “failed” religion, my receiving of divine knowledge, and the end of my religious epiphany I was still in a bit of a throw over my vision of the afterworld. I figured since I was a religious innovator the almighty one might allow me into heaven based on the greatness of my mind and my ability to think “outside the box.” (Folks always want those types on their team.) But, then I remembered that Satan himself was the first one to think “outside the box” and look where that got him. So, where did this leave me vision-wise?
    I am not sure.
    I had no visions for many months and then a new one popped up recently. In my new vision I am in my most professional looking business suit, sitting and waiting in the lobby of an unknown corporation. The secretary keeps coming out and calling people in one-by-one for their interviews. All the other applicants have nice leather briefcases but I have nothing. But that’s not what’s bothering me; what’s worrying me is that I have no idea what I am interviewing for. I may be applying for a job I don’t really want at a corporation I despise...

Beginning of the End, art by Aaron Wilder

The Date
Jason Howell
    The package was delivered by billboard. Ernie McDougal woke up that morning to the sound of pounding footsteps and car alarms going off. He rolled out of bed and waddled to his front door, still in pajamas and shaking with excitement. He was not disappointed. The metal sign towered above the neighborhood, stepping over cars and power-lines, heading straight for Ernie’s house, this advertisement flashing all the time:
    “INSIDE Inc, INSIDE Inc, INSIDE, Inc. It’s what’s inside that counts. So bring the real you out. INSIDE Inc, INSIDE Inc, INSIDE Inc...”
    All the dogs up and down Boon Lane were going crazy. The kids waiting for the school bus gawked and shouted—the younger ones, who had never seen a billboard this close before, scurried back to their front doors, looking over their shoulders, sure they were about to be eaten. However, the big, flat monster merely stopped in Mr. McDougal’s yard and bent down. Two long, thin, metal arms extended a very large cardboard box to Ernie’s outstretched, wiggling hands.
    As he watched the billboard tramp into the horizon, heading back to its usual route up and down the freeway, Ernie thought, “What a brilliant marketing technique. I wish I could have an idea like that.”
    His own job was so much pencil pushing—and that side of it was the most positive. Being a plant supervisor meant he told people what to do, a prospect that made his stomach cramp every morning. But if he didn’t give orders his workers would come looking for him, demanding instructions.
    Hiding in the bathroom didn’t help; he was always eventually found, a sweating mess behind the stall door. Well, his job was going to be easier from now on.
    “No more hiding for me,” Ernie whispered as he stuck his head into the cardboard package marked with two capitalized I’s on the side. He almost fell right in.

    Work was pure delight. Ernie quivered inside his box, listening to his digital likeness bark hearty orders and give out brotherly commendations. Strangely, most of the employees pretended not to notice the change. No one offered any comment at all until Ernie approached them directly (which he could do now, with the touch of a button) and brought it up himself.
    “It looks really good on you. It really does. Yeah. Wish I had one,” the workmen would say when cornered. Usually the well-tanned, barrel-chested crew Ernie managed intimated him, but not today.
    “They respect me,” McDougal sighed from within his container. “And how could they not?”
    Indeed, the men could barely hold their grins on their faces, they seemed so happy for the manager.
    “Thank you for saying so,” the beaming image on the front of the box would reply.
    “How silly that this seemed difficult before,” the man inside chuckled.
    Still smiling, he would let his box remind his worker of their duties and then go on about his own—chubby little legs that peeked out from the bottom propelling the cube forward, eager for the next challenge.

    That afternoon after work, Ernie met a woman in an elevator and they hit it off, or rather, their boxes did. Furthermore, their boxes, after comparing personal data, decided to spend the rest of the evening together. They went out to eat, shared interesting stories and jokes, and saw a show. Then, at the end of their date, the boxes decided to have sex.
    Ernie was elated. He had set his box to pursue spur of the moment relationships but had not imagined the process would work as smoothly as this.
    When Ernie and his friend closed the door behind them their boxes took full control, as they had been programmed to do. Foreplay was about to begin and so the chance of embarrassment was too great of a risk for the humans to be trusted. The last thing they did was activate their sex ports.
    The boxes remained in holographic form for awhile. However, as things progressed and a rocking motion and thudding element developed, they automatically and necessarily solidified into tangible block shapes. The two cubes, already facing, now melded their glowing fronts together. Both lovers watched an image of the other on an internal screen from inside their boxes.
    She was slender yet full, mature but youthful, and infinitely gentle. Ernie, electrified by the suddenness of events as well as the activity itself, began losing himself.
    “Just this morning,” he thought, “this was impossible.”
    The fact impressed him so much that he began whispering it.
    “This was impossible before. It was impossible.”
    His excitement continued to grow when he said it out loud. Soon, he was shouting at the bouncing, twitching picture. When that image did not react, he leaned closer, wanting to tell her. He twisted against pumps and probes, becoming tangled in cords. The struggle only intensified his need to communicate, which, like himself and the wires, had become twisted together with his sexual desire. He was straining towards the shimmering wall and ignoring the beep of a warning alarm.
    Then, with a sad, wet noise, Ernie was tumbling out of his box. Sweaty, meaty folds smacked the cool sheets and then his back struck the cold floor. He lay there a moment, the sudden lack of sensation ringing through his trembling body like loud music turned off too quickly.
    Ernie strained up into a sitting position and looked around, rubbing the areas where the suction cups had jerked free. The boxes were still on the bed, shuttering and rocking against each other. He stood, dazed.
    As his eyes adjusted to the dim light, he perceived a shape across the room. The figure on the other side of the bed had not yet noticed him. He approached her. She was also on her back, having come to rest between the bureau and a wastebasket, leaning back on her elbows, knees in the air. She was also staring up in pained disbelief at the boxes.
    Ernie’s eyes darted up and down, hypnotized by the sight. She was bleach-white and imprinted with freckles that began at her forehead and continued down, decorating the top of her chest and back, peppering her shoulders and forearms. The cool air had raised goose-bumps everywhere. She had scrawny knees and a mannish cleft in her chin. Where her body folded skin bulged. Her matted hair stuck to her forehead and there were sweat-beads above her lips.
    This was so new. No commercial, poster, or movie; no daydream, fantasy, or masturbation session; not even the handful of hurried (almost apologetic) fumbling incidents with women who had prepped, plucked, and decorated themselves beforehand, could have equipped him to understand what he now saw. This was an alien. And she was terribly beautiful.
    He spoke. It was not a word, because, in his fascination, all Ernie could muster was a bit of air pushed over the roof of his mouth and through his nose. As he mumbled, Ernie started forward, hands outstretched, lips quivering. The strange flower raised her head.
    That’s when several things happen at once, very fast.
    Having yet to regain her bearings, the sight of a large, naked stranger with an awestruck expression coming towards her in the dark understandably alarmed Ernie’s date. She jumped up with a shriek. However, as she did so she remembered something that scared her even more: she was also naked.
    Ernie was still trying to explain and still finding no words. When the woman leapt up, he paused and took a step back—she looked almost ready to fight. The next instance, however, her face changed again. Her arms flew around her body, not to her breasts or genitals, but to cover her belly and hips. She was the one who finally found words and they were shrill, accusing, and on the edge of tears:
    “Don’t you look at me.”
    All spells were broken then. Ernie realized his nakedness as well and, with a little, whining moan of pain, fled to the opposite corner of the room.
    After a moment of blazing humiliation in which they realized there was nothing else to do, the humans began shuffling around the room, heads down, searching for their clothes and trying not to look at, or be seen by, one another. Meanwhile, the boxes had completed their imitation romance. The walls de-solidified and an “ERROR” message began flashing on all four screens.
     Ernie and his date, everything else pushed out of their minds, ran back to their bed of failure with fresh anxiety, forgetting each other and their shame, at least temporarily. Not even the flashing lights, spinning on the glass of the window and throwing shadows through the room in time with the rhythmic earthquake outside could distract the un-boxed lovers.
    Outside the motel, two billboards had stopped short; facing one another down. The one advertising a daily drug regimen to cure and keep freckles away had encroached on the Inside Inc billboard’s territory. It seemed a fight might break out until internal programming clicked and the two ads straightened up into friendlier postures. It turns out both companies belonged to the parent corporation. Holding each other, metal claw in claw, they tangoed up and down the boulevard, city-goers fleeing beneath their crashing feet, dancing away into the night.

Sic Transit . . .
Pat Dixon

1
    Roy owned the only drive-thru funeral business in Maine.
    “The terrible economy, some great technology, and a very amiable divorce settlement converged about four months ago to make me one of the great pioneers in my field,” he told the semi-pretty TV reporter from Bangor, who had been sent over to Oxcan on July 12th to interview him.
    Wendy Li of Channel 22 had not mentioned that her editor’s wife had seen a twenty-two second video clip about him on an “Oddball” segment of Countdown with Keith Olbermann two weeks earlier, but Roy Blount rightly guessed that some such luck had befallen him. His business had tripled since that spot first aired on cable and had then been posted on YouTube by his fiancÉe and three others. He now expected that the free publicity of the present interview would further enrich him.
    “This here building was just a regular funeral parlor when my first wife’s mother owned it,” said Roy, gesturing behind him. “For eight years I worked for Martha Blount as head embalmer and coffin salesman, and when I married her daughter, May Blount, I was proud to take their last name as my own. ‘Burials by Blount’ has been the proud name of the business for over seventy-two years, and it seemed a respectful and a wise thing to do.”
    Roy modestly glanced downward, moistening his lips with his thin tongue. Wendy Li pulled her hand-held microphone back towards her own mouth.
    “Mr. Blount, could you share with our viewers and I a bit about those two factors which led to your—”
    She consulted a slip of paper on the palm of her free hand.
    “—to your ‘revolutionary conceptual breakthrough’?”
    “A pleasure, Ms. Li. I do not see this as an unparallelled, world-shaking paradigm shift—nor myself as the Philo Farnsworth of funerary foresight. Mr. Farnsworth, as you know, is widely regarded as the inventor of television—although four big companies made all the profits and left him in the dirt. In my case, Ms. Li, the converging three forces were the economy and two other things. The economy, as viewers will appreciate, can crush the dreams of the small business owner with recessions—or when big corporations undercut the small person’s fair prices. Alhough our industry’s motto—‘There will be one funeral for every person ever born’—is still true, our market share here Blount’s was dropping and sinking and dwindling away. And that disaster leads me to factor number two: material opportunity—the actual premises behind me.”
    Roy held up two fingers towards the video camera and smiled, nodding his head.
    “As you can see, Ms. Li, ‘Burials by Blount’ does not possess any parking lot. You may think this unusually odd—so let me briefly explain. That large lot on the left, belonging to that seafood restaurant—it once was—all ours.”
    Roy sighed, flashed a professional smile, and continued.
    “When my first spouse and I amiably parted, our agreement was that I get the building and its furniture and equipment, hearse included, and continue running Blount’s for at least a year as an unwed entity. She, on the other hand, took full title to the adjacent parking lot—as well as the house we’d owned jointly—and also the house we inherited from Martha Blount, her mother.”
    Clay Vance, the cameraman, focused briefly on a huge sign behind Roy. In large red letters vaguely resembling crustacean legs or claws, it said: “Foah Great Lawbstah, Pawk Yah Cah In This Yahd!” Beneath these words, in smaller black letters, was a less inviting message: “Customers Only! Violators Will Be Towed Away At Their Own Expense By Michael Gorton’s Wrecker Service!!”
    “May Blount, my first wife,” continued Roy without pause, “decided to lease that lot—at a price I was unable to even consider—which was precisely the spur I needed. Technology of all sorts was awaiting to be adapted to this problem—and it is the third leg of the stable stool of my enterprise, Ms. Li. Once ‘Burials by Blount’ was limited to its driveway and whatever on-street parking our patrons might find, it was forced to evolve—or die. Fortunately I, with the aid of my new soulmate and fiancÉe, have been able to adapt to the changing times. Our original insight came from her noticing how one of our Oxcan banks looks like a big ol’ ice vending machine from the outside.”
    Roy gestured towards the south, and for a moment Clay Vance’s video camera faced in that direction.
     “That—um—would be—oh—ten blocks from here,” said Roy frowning slightly and clearing his throat.
    “Here at Blount’s,” he continued brightly, “as I am certain you already know, we now feature drive-thru viewings of all of our currently held remains—at any hour, any day, day or night. During regular business hours six days a week, I or my fiancÉe are on duty, much like tellers at any drive-thru bank. At all other hours, we have an automated self-serve system in place. All anyone needs to do is drive up on our west side there, make a nominal $3.00 donation via cash or debit card, similar to what can be done in most post offices—or most ice vending machines. They then select a particular Loved One from our ‘menu’ using our simple little keypad. We have a conveyor set up indoors that brings the appropriate coffin or urn to the plexiglass window for their respectful viewing for up to five full minutes. If the viewers wish to purchase flowers for the deceased, they can make their selections from another menu and pay in a similar manner. And if they wish to buy a CD containing an array of the Loved One’s favorite music and a slide show of photographs of his or her career from childhood up till—well, that is often available to them in a similar way for a mere pittance. Of course, Ms. Li, Blount’s does right by the copyright holders of recorded music, and that is figured into any costs.”
    “Well, Mr. Blount,” said Wendy Li, brushing her long bangs from her eyes, “this sounds very thorough—and very very unique. But let me ask you another question. I gather that you’ve had a great many—um—favorable feedbacks from your satisfied—um—clients?”
    “Oh my lord, yes, Ms. Li. All in all, most of our clients find that ‘Burials by Blount’ has provided exactly the proper amount of deeply caring support and service for their means, especially in these difficult times. It’s been said with much truth by the bard that ‘We mortal millions live alone,’ and in these times many of us scarcely know three or four of our own neighbors and have almost no relationships with anyone we work with. Who can afford now to rent a large hall in a funeral home to have a service for—say, as a typical number—only five or six mourners—or often fewer? We at Blount’s scale things back to what is real—and eliminate the expense of costly refreshments. Did I mention that, for another nominal charge, folks driving through to pay their respects can leave recorded messages about the deceased persons? This further eliminates the discomfort often suffered by the surviviing relatives when they’re button-holed by folks that get way too long-winded—or are too—too inappropriate in any number of ways which we’ve all of us experienced. Here, as with, say, your own home answering machine, you can just conveniently skip past anything you don’t want to hear and go straight to the next message.”
    “How—very interesting, Mr. Blount. I understand that you are currently residing on the—uh—premises? Yes? Doesn’t that—well—get a little—creepy, sometimes?”
    “Oh, most assuredly not, Ms. Li. For anyone with a proper mindset, such as I and my fiancÉe Gloria have—that’s Ms. Gloria Mundy, a state certified cosmetologist and the true inspiration of this enterprise—living in a funeral home with ‘human remains’ downstairs is the most normal and natural thing in the world. Of course, since we are not yet wed, we most properly and definitely do have our own separate rooms—with locks on our doors. No, Ms. Li, it’s not the least creepy at all, I assure you. And—it’s far quieter than living over a bowling alley! Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.”
    “How very—um—interesting, Mr. Blount. Now—could—you—”
    Wendy Li again consulted the slip of paper in her free hand.
    “—could you—please tell our viewers in your own words just one or two facts—one or two details about—a recent client or two? If—that is—if it would not be any—privacy—any invasion of anyone’s privacy. Channel 22 always is a great respecter of privacy—human dignity—as our viewers appreciate.”
    Drawing himself up to his full five feet nine inches and squaring his slender shoulders, Roy Blount nodded his head vigorously towards Clay Vance’s video camera.
    “It would be a pleasure, Ms. Li. I don’t want to sensationalize the passing of any human being—but three of our more interesting—uh—‘adventures with mortality,’ to coin a phrase, have to do with—uh—incidents that were fully reported in our local paper, the Oxcan Bi-Weekly Independent. But I would bet that not many viewers elsewhere—uh—Down East—uh—have heard about them yet—and I would even bet that a few local Oxcans are totally unaware that ‘Burials by Blount’ handled the—uh—the services in our new manner for them. They were among our first—uh—uh—services.”
    Roy paused to clear his throat, flash a little grin at the camera, and run his right hand across the side of his glossy black hair.
    “Briefly speaking, Ms. Li—and I trust that none of this will shock to your feminine—uh—system in any way, shape, or form. I’m sure you, as a highly trained and experienced and attractive professional, are accustomed to seeing all sides of life—uh—many sides of life. Briefly speaking, we at Blount’s handled—provided for—the remains of Leroy Shanker when he was shot three months ago while cruising up and down the main street of Buena Vista, our sister village, in his customized off-road pick-up truck. Mr. Shanker’s life partner could not afford a lavish—uh—service, and in any case it had to be a closed casket affair, since his little body was—well—he was shot maybe two hundred times—allegedly shot—by Billy Bob Singleberry. Thelma Lou Hunter, his soulmate who shared his trailer, had tried to—but never mind that. Mr. Shanker was our first big ‘draw,’ so to speak. Maybe our biggest so far—over nine hundred and fifty drove through just to see the casket.
    “And then there was Charlie Bennett. Mr. Bennett was a highly respected retired French teacher in our Oxcan high school—over seventy years old. One Saturday, about a month ago, he was visiting his very elderly mother over at the Trudeau Center for Health and Rehabilitation—our local nursing home—and he just stepped into a lavatory and locked the door—and had a fatal heart attack, right there on the—on the seat. Wasn’t found till late the following Monday. My fiancÉe did a wonderful job with Charlie. You wouldn’t believe how much he soiled—he—. Can—uh—you edit this tape—uh—back in your studio? You can? Good. Excellent. No need to get too graphic for the viewers right at dinner time. My own intended, my Gloria, worked her magic on Mr. Bennett, and the result was just wonderful. He was in an open casket, and well over five hundred folks came to pay their respects. His poor dear mother has no idea how he died—nor even that he died. And we heard from his nearest kin—a niece in Virginia, who arranged his funeral by phone—that his mother doesn’t remember she ever had any kids nor even was ever married. She just—well—you know.”
    Wendy Li pulled her hand-held microphone back to her own mouth.
    “Well, yes I do, Mr. Blount. I guess a lot of our viewers have been there! This is Wendy Li, reporting for Channel 22 on an amazing new phenomena—the first drive-thru funeral home, here in beautiful Oxcan, Maine! And—cut.”
    “Uh—Ms. Li—I would be glad to redo any of those examples—or even tape another to replace one of them. Currently we are preparing the—the remains of a college professor—Arthur Hamilton Welles—who was allegedly stabbed by his wife after winning a little bet about math with her. She used—allegedly used—an icepick right in their—. No? Well, I’m sure you’re the best judge, being a professional newswoman—and it is still a pending case—but then so is the Leroy Shanker matter, legally speaking—but—.”

2
    A greatly abridged segment of Wendy Li’s special report on “Burials by Blount” aired on Channel 22 four evenings later. Roy’s clever fiancÉe, Ms. Mundy, posted a copy of it on YouTube the next day, and seven more copies of it were posted later that week by four residents of Maine, one of New Hampshire, and two of New Brunswick.
    Business at “Burials by Blount” continued to thrive throughout the summer months, with the bodies of Professor Arthur Hamilton Welles and two others setting new records there.
    Roy owned the only drive-thru funeral business in Maine during the spring and summer.
    In early September, the Fairleigh Funeral Service of nearby Beard, Maine, opened its own drive-thru facility. In mid-September, Talbot’s Memorial Parlor, just seven blocks from Blount’s in Oxcan, followed with one of its own. By late October, the state of Maine could boast of at least sixty-six similar establishments, ten of them owned by a national chain that had been started up from scratch.
    In late November, Roy’s fiancÉe resigned from Blount’s and departed Oxcan to take a position in the metropolis of Orono, teaching three special courses in the University of Maine’s new Drive-Thru-Funeral-Home Design and Management Division.
    Sic transit Gloria Mundy.

No Picnic, art by Cheryl Townsend

Rose and Sunshine
Marc Tamargo
    Ever since I was a little girl I have been fascinated by the legends of Europa. Like the world I live on Ganymede, Europa is a moon of Jupiter’s and was terraformed centuries ago, and like Ganymede it is a world covered in one vast ocean littered with large artificial floating cities for people to live on. But unlike Ganymede, Europa is said to be a paradise where everyone lives in peace with one another, a world without hatred. What fascinated me the most about it was that no one throughout the entire solar system had been to Europa in over a century.
    My mother used to tell me stories about Europa when I was a child. That is, before she died when I was seven. It was said that, on Europa there was no sickness, no wars, no hostility toward one another and that no one had to ever work. And the oceans of Europa were said to crystal clear and beautiful as opposed to the dark blandness of Ganymede’s ocean. It was said that the ocean of Europa were blessed by beings that had lived there billions of years ago, and that anyone swimming in it experiences a feeling of ecstasy.
    It was said that the peaceful people of Europa feared that the violent chaotic nature of the rest of the human race would infect their perfect paradise, so they erected an impenetrable energy barrier around the entire world, making it impossible for anyone to leave or enter. Many people tried to get through the barrier. Warlike worlds like Io launched massive militaristic assaults on the barrier attempting invasion, while more civilized worlds like Ganymede and Mars attempted to use scientific and technological means to take down the barrier, but no attempts were successful. Eventually after years of failure everyone gave up and accepted Europa as a forbidden place.
    After my mother died, my father’s passing interest in Europa slowly turned into an obsession. Being the brilliant scientist and engineer that he was, he became convinced that he could build a small stealth ship capable of penetrating the energy barrier. I asked him what made him think that he could do what thousands of the system’s greatest minds had failed to do, and he answered that they were looking at it the wrong way, that they had always tried to overpower the barrier instead of trying to send a ship with little power to slip through. He would also say that there had been many technological advances since they last tried and that they would work better, but no one was interested in Europa anymore. He worked all the time on his ship, and even showed me how to operate it in case I went with him.
    I have lived what some might call a sheltered life. My father was pretty good at protecting me from pain and hardship. I had many friends I would talk to at school but no one that I felt close to. I was known for always being in a bright and cheerful mood. That and my long bright blond hair is what earned me the nickname Sunshine. My father often called me that when he was in a good mood.
    One night when I was seventeen, I came downstairs after studying to find my father looking very distraught. I felt alarmed and concerned. I ran to him to ask him what was wrong. “You deserve better than me.” He said.
    “Nonsense.” I told him sincerely, “You’ve always been good to me.”
    “But I haven’t been honest with you.” I started to worry, that didn’t sound like my dad. “Jennifer, you have a sister.” I was in far too much shock at the time to recall exactly what my physical reaction was but I’m fairly certain my mouth hung open and my eyes went wide.
    “Wh-what do you mean?” I managed to say.
    “Before I met your mother she was very briefly married to someone else. They had a daughter named Rose. She never told you because it ended badly with her and her first husband. She didn’t have much contact with Rose either. She planned on telling you when you got older but then she died and I... well I never had the heart to tell you.” I was speechless, I had never experienced anything in my life to prepare me for this moment. I was overwhelmed with many emotions not the least of which was anger, so I simply turned around and went back to my room without a word.
    The next day my father avoided me. I think he felt ashamed and was afraid that I hated him, but my anger had long since subsided. I was never one to hold a grudge. I made sure to hug him and let him know that I still loved him, but I also told him that I wanted to meet my sister. He said he would make some inquiries. The next day he told me where I could find her. She lived in the city of Hawkins which wasn’t too far away, only twenty minutes by air shuttle, but it was quite different than Canterbury, the city I lived in. Canterbury was a relatively small and quiet community where not much happened, whereas Hawkins was a large Metropolis over run with people and from what I’d heard crime. The thought of venturing in anywhere save the city center of Hawkins frightened me a bit, but I decided that I really wanted to meet my sister.
    The house where I was told Rose lived in was a sickly looking thing in a poor neighborhood. I tried to go over in my head what I would say to her but I really had no idea, so I just quickly knocked on the door. A girl slightly older than me answered, she had unnaturally bright pink hair which was cut in an even fringe that looked short around the back and long around the front, and it kind of covered her eyes. She wore clothes more dirty and revealing than anything I would ever wear and had a body that was quite thin. I put on my best smile for her, “Hi, are you Rose?” I knew even as I spoke that I didn’t keep the nervousness out of my voice.
    “Yeah.” She causally said while leaning against the wall with one arm, looking bored.
    “My name is Jennifer, I’m...uh...your sister.” I added my most enthusiastic smile after that statement to emphasize my point.
    “What?” She looked angry, I was starting to get really scared. She turned back to a fat middle aged man who sat on a couch watching the holoveiwer and drinking from a bottle. “Dad, there’s a girl at the door who says she’s my sister.” She yelled at him.
    “Yeah, so?” He said apathetically.
    “So, is she?”
    He leaned over to glance at me, and then said, “Probably.”
    “I have a sister!?”
    “Yeah.”
    She picked up some dirty laundry that was lying around and hurled it at him. “You asshole! Why didn’t you tell me I had a sister?”
    He dodged it without much consideration. “I don’t know. What do you care?” He took a big swig of his beverage, and then turned all of his attention back on the holoviewer.
    Rose turned back to me with a friendly smile, “I’m sorry... Jennifer was it?” I nodded. “Do you wanna come in?”
    “Sure.” I replied with as much enthusiasm I could gather, feeling as uncomfortable as I did.
    She escorted me to a flight of stairs. As we passed her father she extended her middle finger toward him and said to me, “Never mind this asshole, he can go fuck himself.” He flashed her a brief patronizing smile. Rose took me up to her bedroom, which like the rest of her house was a total mess and had a peculiar smell.
    “So how the hell are you my sister?”
    That tone caught me off guard. I started to defend myself, “I’m not lying, I...”
    “Oh, I believe you,” she said in a friendlier manner, “That tub of shit down there wouldn’t have said you were if you weren’t. I take it we share the same mother, since she abandoned me when I was a child.” I nodded, “Where is she now?” She then lit her cigarette.
    “She died when I was seven years old.”
    “Well, at least that explains why she never came to see me. So tell me about yourself, what is my long lost sister like?”
    We made small talk; I did most of the talking. I told her all about my life at my boring school and living with my father. She told me little about her life, but she seemed more interested in what I had to say. She seemed particularly interested when I started talking about the legends of Europa. She seemed impressed that my father was trying to go there.
    “Wouldn’t that be something, if he actually did go there?” She said between puffs of her cigarette. “I mean, I always thought it cool too, you know, the forbidden world, where no one can go. But you can see it right there in the night sky most nights. And it’s supposed to be like some sort of paradise. I wonder if it really is.” She suddenly leaned towards me, “Hey, do you think you’d go with him, if he like, did go?”
    “I don’t know, I never really thought about it.” I lied. I had thought about it a lot, the truth was I didn’t know if I wanted to go or not.
    “I’d go.” She said with enthusiasm.
    “Really?”
    “Hell yeah. I’d feel like a real explorer or some kind of hero or something. Plus any reason to get off this shit hole world. I’ve heard that on Europa everyone has their own personal robot servant who follows you around. And he has some kind of magical power or something and is able to grant you your every wish.” I smiled; I was really impressed with her fearless spirit. I saw in her all the brave qualities I wish I had.
    After another hour or so I realized it was getting late and decided to go home before it got dark. “Well, I should get going. You’re probably sick of hearing me babble on anyway.”
    “No, not at all.” Then she did something that took me by surprise, she gave me a hug. “You should come over more often, we’ll hang out.”
    I smiled a grin of relief. “Sure I’d like that.” I went home a bit stunned. I was certain that she would want nothing to do with a sheltered geek like me, but I was wrong.
    So I started going to see her all the time. Rose and I connected on a level that I’d never experienced before. We were so different from each other; I was sweet, simple, cheerful and complacent where Rose was vulgar, complex, and rebellious. Yet we seemed to connect on a level that was subservient to all those things. Maybe it was because we were both lonely and longed for a companion who understood us.
    She was delighted when she heard my nickname was Sunshine, she thought it really suited me. “I got an idea!” She said with excitement, “We should go out and get tattoos together.” I noticed that she had several tattoos, a crescent Jupiter on her ankle and a dragon on her back, but I never liked the thought of getting a tattoo.
    I scrunched up my nose at the thought. “I don’t know...”
    “Come on, it’ll be great! I’ll get a tattoo of a rose on my left shoulder and you can get a tattoo of a big bright sun on your right shoulder, and when we put them together we’ll be Rose and Sunshine; a great combination. Come on.”
    The way she put it actually made the idea sound appealing to me. It would be symbols of our bond of friendship and I could tell it was really important to her, so I said yes. We went down to the shop and got them done. Mine was a bright yellow sun; it was on my upper shoulder so most of the time it would be covered by my shirt. Rose however preferred to wear sleeveless shirts, so the bright red rose with a green stem that extended down to her elbow would always be showing.
    We would always hang out at my place, sometimes we would get drunk, a habit Rose taught me. After a few months Rose wasn’t satisfied with hanging out by ourselves anymore. She wanted to go out to clubs. I really didn’t want to, but I didn’t want to be disagreeable either, so I went. The nights usually went like this: I would sit by myself in a corner sipping my drink, trying not to get too drunk while Rose would go off dancing or flirting with random guys. Some times she brought people over to talk to me, and if I was drunk enough sometimes I did, but usually I would just sit there quietly. Rose seemed to be oblivious to how obviously uncomfortable I felt in these situations because she started wanting to go out more and more. Eventually I actually started to loosen up and meet some new people, until the night that it happened.
    One night I was sitting alone by myself when I realized that I had no idea where Rose was so I went off in search for her. I found her outside in a near by alley way. She was making out with some random guy. I was a bit tired of her always going off and leaving me by myself so I decided to just go home. But as I was walking away I heard screams and I knew without a doubt they belonged to Rose. I ran back to her as quick as I could. I arrived to see her holding a knife to the guy she had been necking with. I called out to her and she said, “This fucker tried to rape me.” The guy was calling to his friends and before I knew it she was encircled by five vicious looking men. They were yelling stuff at her, mocking her while she kept saying, “Back the fuck away from me or I’ll fucking kill you.”
    One guy got too close to her so she lunged at him with the knife, but while she did that another guy grabbed her from behind and got a good hold of her. After that, they easily knocked the knife out of her hands. Then they pounced on her like a pack of wolves. They clawed and ripped at her clothing while others punched her if she put up too much resistance.
    For a moment I just stood there stunned. I think I was in a state of shock. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to go get help but I didn’t want to leave Rose alone while this was happening to her. And I wouldn’t gain anything by attacking them, I was too weak. So I started crying out for help as loud as I could. We weren’t that far from the club so someone was bound to hear me.
    I walked closer to the club while I continued to scream, but not going too far as I couldn’t still see Rose. In fact my sight was so fixed on her that I didn’t notice the man who had stepped directly in my path. “Hey, do you mind? We kind of like our privacy, so if you know what’s good for you...” the last part he screamed at me, “You’ll shut the fuck up!”
    Fear started to overwhelm all my sensations as I sensed I was about to be attacked. The next thing I knew my attacker suddenly went limp and his body tumbled to the ground. I looked up to see a guy in a dark coat lunging at Rose’s attackers. He too caught them off guard, but he was more prepared to deal with them. I watched as the guy in the dark coat, armed with a lead pipe quickly and effectively knocked all of our attackers to the ground. He then grabbed Rose and helped her run away. I quickly came to Rose’s other side and put my arm around her to help prop her up, she was obviously still weak from her assault.
    “We gotta hurry. Those guys won’t be down for long.” The guy in the dark coat said to me. We were running as fast as we could, but before long I knew he was right. Our attackers were in pursuit of us and it wasn’t long before they were on us. Just when I thought they were going to catch up to us a ratty old car appeared seemingly out of nowhere right in front of us. The doors were already open. “Get in!” The guy in the dark coat yelled, so we quickly hopped in.
    “Go, Dawson, go!” The guy shouted. The car quickly took off in the air leaving our pursuers behind on the ground as we sped off. I looked to our rescuers, the guy in the coat appeared around Rose’s age. He was a somewhat tall fellow, but had an unthreatening face. He had shoulder length dark hair. The boy who was driving the car whose name was apparently Dawson, looked young, slightly younger than me. He was unhealthily thin with pale skin and very shortly cut brown hair.
    I held Rose, most of her clothes had been ripped off, but she still had her undergarments on. It seemed she had managed to fight them off long enough to prevent them from violating her, but she had paid for it. Her body was covered in knife cuts and bruises. The guy handed me his long coat and I quickly wrapped it around her while I held her tight.
    “I’m sorry I didn’t get there sooner.” Our rescuer said to us. “I heard you screaming when it first began, but I had to get Dawson here, to plan our getaway.”
    “That’s okay,” I faintly said with what little strength I had. Rose just stared straight ahead, looking into nothingness. Her lips were softly moving, but I couldn’t hear anything. When I listened closely I could faintly make out the words ‘those fuckers’ which she was repeating over and over.
    “Where to, Michael?” Dawson asked the guy, Michael. In response he looked back to us.
    I thought for a moment, and then told them to take us to my house and I gave them the directions. When we got there Michael helped me carry Rose inside. We took her up to my room where I treated her with a first aid kit, and left her to rest.
    “Thank you.” I said to Michael when we had gone back downstairs. “I know Rose will be too proud to admit it but you really saved us back there. I hate to think what would’ve happened...” my voice trailed off as a single tear came to my eye.
    “Don’t give it another thought. I’d like to think anyone else in my position would’ve done the same thing.”
    “Yeah but it wasn’t someone else.”
    “Well, on that note we do have a favor to ask.”
    I turned to stare directly at him in sincerity. “Name it.”
    “We kind of need a place to stay tonight. We don’t really have...”
    “Sure.” I said interrupting him. “There’s a spare room you guys can have. I’ll just stay in my room with Rose. So don’t worry about it. Stay for as long as you need.”
    So they stayed with us for the next couple of months. We learned that their mother had died while giving birth to Dawson. They were raised by their father who was an alcoholic and would often beat them. Sick of the abuse they ran away from home when Michael was sixteen and Dawson was twelve. They’d been wandering ever since.
    Rose was happy staying at home hanging out with them which made me really happy because she didn’t want to go out to clubs anymore. I started to form new bounds of friendship with these two boys. I never really been around many boys before so it was a bit awkward for me at first, but Michael was a very kind man. He had a much more gentle nature than I would have suspected giving the circumstances of our meeting. And Dawson was usually a bit quiet so I didn’t get to know him quite as well but he was fun to have around.

Feminie Wiles, art by Edward Michael O’Durr Supranowicz

    One day the four of us were hanging out together when I started thinking about my future. So I asked them. “What should I do with my life?”
    Rose and Dawson just smirked and shrugged, but Michael looked to me with a serious look on his face. “Well, the way I see it you have three options, do the bare minimum to get by like Dawson and me have done...”
    “And me!” Rose gleeful interrupted, and then banged her glass of beer against his in a salute.
    “Or,” Michael continued, “You can join the criminal underworld. Or if you want to be involved in legitimate business, leave Ganymede.”
    “What?” I said, “Why would I have to leave Ganymede if I wanted to be legitimate?”
     “Look around you,” Michael replied, “I know you grew up in this small luxurious community, but you can’t be blind to the crime infested shit hole that Ganymede is. This is where most of the pirates from the asteroid belt come to unload the booty they get from raiding passing ships, and some many large criminal originations run everything. They have the fingers in everything, the government, so called ‘legitimate’ businesses, everything.”
    Of course I have heard sentiments like that before, rumors that half the population of Calisto would visit here just to get stolen goods, but I think Michael was being way overly cynical about it. “Come on, it’s not that bad. There are plenty of people who live and work and have nothing to do with outlaws.”
    “Oh yeah? Like who?”
    “Like my dad.”
    “If he hasn’t had dealing with the crime lords in one way or another, he will. Living on Ganymede, it’s inevitable.” I frowned in disagreement.
    A couple days later I went out on the porch to get some fresh air only catch Michael and Rose kissing. Stunned, my first reaction was to go back inside out of embarrassment however I stood my ground. “Michael, can I speak to you for a second?”
    They looked at each other. “Sunshine, what the hell are you doing? You’re not my mother.”
    “I just wanna talk.” I said.
    “It’s alright.” He said to her then came inside with me.
    “You know I’m actually glad to see her with someone like you.” I said to him, “You seem to be an honest, decent guy. I’d just like to know if you plan on just ditching us in a couple of days, because she has had enough of guys coming and going in her life and... I... myself have been getting along really well with you and Dawson so I’d just like to know what your plans are.”
    “C’mon, it’s not like I asked her to marry me or anything.”
    “Don’t evade the question.”
    “I don’t know... I don’t really have any plans. Like I said, me and Dawson are just wanderers, but since we’re being honest here... I’d have to say that we haven’t been this happy in a while. And truthfully I have always felt that the only reason we’d leave is if we got kicked out and you didn’t want to see us anymore. Because I haven’t met anyone like Rose before that seemed to understand me... better than I understand myself. And both Dawson and I are glad to be around someone as bright and cheerful as you, it’s a big change from the shitty way our lives have gone so far.” From the way he kept nervously looking down I could tell he was being sincere.
    “That’s really sweet.” I said. Then escorted back out to the porch where Rose was waiting. “You can have him back now.” I said.
    “Gee, thanks mother.” Rose replied. I stuck my tongue out at her in response.
    But while the four of us were getting along so great I barely saw my dad. His obsession with building the ship was getting out of hand. He spent all of his time working on that thing. He would be up working on it when I went to sleep at night, and he would be awake working on it when I got up in the morning. I was starting to wonder if he ever got any sleep at all. I decided to confront him about it.
    “You’re not happy anymore.” I said, “Dad, what’s going on? Something’s got to be wrong.”
    “Look Sunshine, I...” I gave him a stern look and he sighed in resignation. “You know Landov Inc.?”
    “Sure, that’s the company that’s been funding your work.”
    “Yeah well, they stopped funding my work several months ago.”
    “They did? Well, then how have you been able to continue your work?”
    “I frantically went around trying to find someone else to fund my work, but no one wanted to do it, so I finally found someone who was willing to loan me the money I needed.”
    “Really, who?”
    “Rudolph Spencer.” My eyes went wide with shock. I recognized that name from Michael and Rose’s conversations about the criminal underworld. Rudolph Spencer was the most notorious criminal master mind in all of Ganymede. “I told him I could triple his money in a few months, I lied. I’ll never be able to pay him back.”
    “Dad, he’ll kill you!”
    “I was desperate! I needed to finish the ship and I couldn’t get the money anywhere else. But don’t worry, he won’t kill me because he won’t be able to find me.” He grabbed my shoulders and stared directly into my eyes to reassure me. “I’ll be finished the ship in a couple of days and then I’m going to go to Europa, to paradise. No one will ever be able to find me there. Sunshine, you have to come with me. As my daughter they’ll come after you if they can’t find me. If you stay you’ll life will be in danger, so you’ve got to come with me.”
    “You bastard!” I yelled at him, “How could you do this to me?” I slapped his arms away and ran up to my room. I stayed there for a long time crying into my pillow. I was so distraught, I had finally met my best friend, a kindred spirit who happened to be my long lost sister and together we’d made a couple of good friends and then all of a sudden I was being forced to leave it all behind to go to some mysterious place that no one knew anything about.
    I avoided my dad for the next couple of days. Rose and the others could tell there was something wrong, but I dodged all their questions and eventually they let it go. Then one day when my dad had gone out for supplies and the four of us were upstairs watching the holoviewer when someone rang the door bell. We looked at the monitor to see who it was and it was a pair of police officers. “Oh shit!” Michael said, “Don’t tell ‘em I’m here. They could be after me for beating up those guys at the club.”
    “Don’t worry, I’ll get it.” I said, and then went downstairs to answer the door. I considered the possibility that they could be after my dad; who knew what else he could’ve done.
    “Yes?” I said after I opened the door.
    “Jennifer Maritine?” One of the officers asked.
    They knew my name! “Yes.”
    “I’m Officer Johnson, this is Officer Shepard, we’re with the Hawkins Police Department. You were at the Karton Klub on fifth street in Hawkins on the night of April 20th.”
    That wasn’t a question. “Yes.”
    The other officer spoke, “Can you tell us if you’ve seen this man?” He flipped open a projector and a perfect hologram of Michael appeared in front of me.
    “No I haven’t”
    “This man, Michael Leonard Richardson, is responsible for the murder of an innocent man on the night of April 20th just outside of the Karton Klub.” Officer Johnson said.
    “The night you were there.” Officer Shepard added.
    “He beat him to death with a lead pipe.” Officer Johnson said, “Are you sure you’ve never seen him before?” I could feel them staring at me, I knew police officers were trained to detect lies, some even had special implants that helped them to do so, and I knew that I was a horrible liar.
    “Yes, I’m sure.”
    “What about this man?” Sheppard asked and then changed the holographic image so that it no longer displayed an image of Michael but the image of one of the men who attacked Rose that night. I recognized him instantly as the man who had initially tried to rape her.
    “No, I don’t recognize him either.” I could feel them staring at me. It felt like their stares were giving off heat, I think I might have been sweating.
    “This is the man that Michael Richardson killed.” They stared at me a bit longer. “Well, if you think of anything that might be helpful, anything at all, please contact us.”
    “And we’d appreciate it if you didn’t leave town, we might want to ask you some more questions.” Sheppard said.
    “Sure.” I said putting on my best smile. I let out a huge sigh after I shut the door behind them. I didn’t think it had gone well at all. I quickly ran upstairs to find Michael pacing vigorously, Rose standing still, biting her nails, and Dawson working at the computer.
    “We saw the whole thing.” Rose said. “Dawson’s checking the nets to see what he can discover. He found out that Michael did kill that guy while he was saving me, but the police have no record of us being attacked.”
    “Holy shit!” Dawson shouted out.
    “What!? What is it?” Michael asked anxiously.
    “That cop, Sheppard, he’s on Rudolph Spencer’s payroll, and that guy you killed, he was one of Spencer’s henchmen.”
    “Fuck!” Michael exclaimed. “They don’t want to arrest me, they want to kill me.”
    “Wait a minute,” Dawson said, “those cops just applied for a warrant to search this house. It should only take them a day to get it.”
    “We should’ve went to the cops right after the attack and told them what happened.” I said.
    “No,” Dawson said, “If you’ve done that, then they would’ve just been able to find Michael quicker and he’d be dead by now.”
    “No,” Michael said, “They wouldn’t have cared that those assholes were trying to rape you, Spencer’s men would have made sure an example was made of me. I gotta leave Ganymede. Hell, I gotta leave the Jovian System. No matter where I go they’ll find me!”
    “What about Europa?” I said. There was a sudden thick silence as everyone stared at me in puzzlement. I think Rose was the only one who knew what I might be thinking since she knew about my dad’s plans. I told them about my dad’s ship and his problem with the gangsters, and how he will be leaving soon and that I was going with him.
    “That’s crazy.” Michael said, “No one can get to Europa, everyone’s tried for over a century to get through the barrier. What makes you think you’re dad can do it?”
    “Because he’s a genius,” I said, “and he’s determined. He said the ship is almost ready and I’m sure he’ll let you come along, he said there’s room enough for four people.”
    “Dawson would have to come too,” Michael said, “If they can’t find me, they’ll find him and make an example out of him.”
    “Okay, but there’s only enough room in the ship for four,” I said, “the life support systems can’t handle more than that.” We all looked to Rose.
    “It’s okay, no one knows I’m connected to either of you, I’ll be okay if I stay here.” She said.
    I ran to her and hugged her. “No, I can’t loose you. We just found each other.”
    “I know,” she said, “it sucks, but if that’s the way it’s got to be then that’s the way it’s got to be.”
    When I let go Michael grabbed her hand. “I won’t leave you.” He said.
    “Yes you will,” She replied, “or I’ll kill you myself.”
    As we were packing our things my dad came flying through the door. I’ve never seen him in such a panic in my life. “They’ve been asking questions about me around town. They’re coming for me. They’re probably on their way here right now. We have to leave, now.”
    “Michael and Dawson have to go with us.” I told him about their predicament.
    “That’s fine,” he said, “tell them to get in the ship. We got to go now!”
    “Is it ready? Will it get through the barrier?”
    “Yeah, I just need to make a few last minute adjustments.”
    I gathered my friends up together and we went to the ship to prepare for our incredible journey. We packed very lightly for we had no idea what Europa would be like, only that was supposed to be a paradise. Michael, Dawson and I sat in the ship while my dad stood on the outside making his last minute adjustment. Rose stood beside the ship to bid us farewell. I was crying. I didn’t want to leave her.
    I saw Michael reach out his hand to hers, but before they touched the whole world around us rocked with a violent explosion. I looked ahead to see that the front hanger doors had exploded open. There was fire everywhere; I hadn’t seen anything like it before.
    All of the sudden men with guns started rushing in from the blazing hole. In an instant they opened fire, gunshots exploded all around us. I saw Rose duck behind the ship. I looked down just in time to see my dad get hit with multiple gun shots. I watched helplessly as the life drained from his body.
    “Dad!” I screamed as loud as I could. I started to get up to go to him, but Dawson held me back. In the corner of my eye I could see Michael pulling Rose aboard the ship as gun shots continued to explode all around us.
    “Get us out of here!” Michael shouted to me.
    I was sitting at the controls but I was panicking. Tears blinded my vision and my hands were shaking. I felt Rose sit beside me. She gently touched my arm and whispered into my ear, “I know you can do this.”
    Her serenity gave me the calmness and determination that I needed. I remembered what my dad taught me about flying the ship and we launched. The men with guns looked like little dots as we sped up into the atmosphere. Rose held my hand all the way until we were floating in space above Ganymede.
    All of us were in awe; we had never been in space before. The tears started to subside, the magnificence of Jupiter looming over us made me forget my worries. I moved the ship around Jupiter until we saw a blue world covered in swirled clouds appear around Jupiter’s horizon. It looked like Ganymede, only smaller.
    Rose gave me a half hug. “I’m glad I’m here with you guys. I can’t imagine my life without you. I wouldn’t want to go back to that.”
    I knew the ship would make it though the barrier, my dad was a genius. Then it was right in front of us, the legend, the forbidden world, our future. We were about to be the first ones in over a century to see it. “Next stop: paradise.”

Glass Figure YUN, art by Junior McLean

    Nick DiSpoldo, Small Press Review (on “Children, Churches and Daddies,” April 1997)
    Kuypers is the widely-published poet of particular perspectives and not a little existential rage, but she does not impose her personal or artistic agenda on her magazine. CC+D is a provocative potpourri of news stories, poetry, humor, art and the “dirty underwear” of politics.
    One piece in this issue is “Crazy,” an interview Kuypers conducted with “Madeline,” a murderess who was found insane, and is confined to West Virginia’s Arronsville Correctional Center. Madeline, whose elevator definitely doesn’t go to the top, killed her boyfriend during sex with an ice pick and a chef’s knife, far surpassing the butchery of Elena Bobbitt. Madeline, herself covered with blood, sat beside her lover’s remains for three days, talking to herself, and that is how the police found her. For effect, Kuypers publishes Madeline’s monologue in different-sized type, and the result is something between a sense of Dali’s surrealism and Kafka-like craziness.

Debra Purdy Kong, writer, British Columbia, Canada
I like the magazine a lot. I like the spacious lay-out and the different coloured pages and the variety of writer’s styles. Too many literary magazines read as if everyone graduated from the same course. We need to collect more voices like these and send them everywhere.

    Ed Hamilton, writer
    #85 (of Children, Churches and Daddies) turned out well. I really enjoyed the humor section, especially the test score answers. And, the cup-holder story is hilarious. I’m not a big fan of poetry - since much of it is so hard to decipher - but I was impressed by the work here, which tends toward the straightforward and unpretentious.
    As for the fiction, the piece by Anderson is quite perceptive: I liked the way the self-deluding situation of the character is gradually, subtly revealed. (Kuypers’) story is good too: the way it switches narrative perspective via the letter device is a nice touch.

Children, Churches and Daddies.
It speaks for itself.
Write to Scars Publications to submit poetry, prose and artwork to Children, Churches and Daddies literary magazine, or to inquire about having your own chapbook, and maybe a few reviews like these.

    Jim Maddocks, GLASGOW, via the Internet
    I’ll be totally honest, of the material in Issue (either 83 or 86 of Children, Churches and Daddies) the only ones I really took to were Kuypers’. TRYING was so simple but most truths are, aren’t they?

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    A vegan (VEE-gun) is someone who does not consume any animal products. While vegetarians avoid flesh foods, vegans don’t consume dairy or egg products, as well as animal products in clothing and other sources.
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    C Ra McGuirt, Editor, The Penny Dreadful Review (on Children, Churches and Daddies)
    cc&d is obviously a labor of love ... I just have to smile when I go through it. (Janet Kuypers) uses her space and her poets to best effect, and the illos attest to her skill as a graphic artist.
    I really like (“Writing Your Name”). It’s one of those kind of things where your eye isn’t exactly pulled along, but falls effortlessly down the poem.
I liked “knowledge” for its mix of disgust and acceptance. Janet Kuypers does good little movies, by which I mean her stuff provokes moving imagery for me. Color, no dialogue; the voice of the poem is the narrator over the film.

    Children, Churches and Daddies no longer distributes free contributor’s copies of issues. In order to receive issues of Children, Churches and Daddies, contact Janet Kuypers at the cc&d e-mail addres. Free electronic subscriptions are available via email. All you need to do is email ccandd@scars.tv... and ask to be added to the free cc+d electronic subscription mailing list. And you can still see issues every month at the Children, Churches and Daddies website, located at http://scars.tv

    Mark Blickley, writer
    The precursor to the magazine title (Children, Churches and Daddies) is very moving. “Scars” is also an excellent prose poem. I never really thought about scars as being a form of nostalgia. But in the poem it also represents courage and warmth. I look forward to finishing her book.

MIT Vegetarian Support Group (VSG)
functions:
* To show the MIT Food Service that there is a large community of vegetarians at MIT (and other health-conscious people) whom they are alienating with current menus, and to give positive suggestions for change.
* To exchange recipes and names of Boston area veg restaurants
* To provide a resource to people seeking communal vegetarian cooking
* To provide an option for vegetarian freshmen
    We also have a discussion group for all issues related to vegetarianism, which currently has about 150 members, many of whom are outside the Boston area. The group is focusing more toward outreach and evolving from what it has been in years past. We welcome new members, as well as the opportunity to inform people about the benefits of vegetarianism, to our health, the environment, animal welfare, and a variety of other issues.

    Gary, Editor, The Road Out of Town (on the Children, Churches and Daddies Web Site)
    I just checked out the site. It looks great.

    Dusty Dog Reviews: These poems document a very complicated internal response to the feminine side of social existence. And as the book proceeds the poems become increasingly psychologically complex and, ultimately, fascinating and genuinely rewarding.

    John Sweet, writer (on chapbook designs)
    Visuals were awesome. They’ve got a nice enigmatic quality to them. Front cover reminds me of the Roman sculptures of angels from way back when. Loved the staggered tire lettering, too. Way cool.
    (on “Hope Chest in the Attic”)
    Some excellent writing in “Hope Chest in the Attic.” I thought “Children, Churches and Daddies” and “The Room of the Rape” were particularly powerful pieces.

    Dusty Dog Reviews: She opens with a poem of her own devising, which has that wintry atmosphere demonstrated in the movie version of Boris Pasternak’s Doctor Zhivago. The atmosphere of wintry white and cold, gloriously murderous cold, stark raging cold, numbing and brutalizing cold, appears almost as a character who announces to his audience, “Wisdom occurs only after a laboriously magnificent disappointment.” Alas, that our Dusty Dog for mat cannot do justice to Ms. Kuypers’ very personal layering of her poem across the page.

    Cheryl Townsend, Editor, Impetus (on Children, Churches and Daddies)
    The new cc&d looks absolutely amazing. It’s a wonderful lay-out, looks really professional - all you need is the glossy pages. Truly impressive AND the calendar, too. Can’t wait to actually start reading all the stuff inside.. Wanted to just say, it looks good so far!!!

    Fithian Press, Santa Barbara, CA
    Indeed, there’s a healthy balance here between wit and dark vision, romance and reality, just as there’s a good balance between words and graphics. The work shows brave self-exploration, and serves as a reminder of mortality and the fragile beauty of friendship.
    Mark Blickley, writer
    The precursor to the magazine title (Children, Churches and Daddies) is very moving. “Scars” is also an excellent prose poem. I never really thought about scars as being a form of nostalgia. But in the poem it also represents courage and warmth. I look forward to finishing her book.
    You Have to be Published to be Appreciated.
    Do you want to be heard? Contact Children, Churches and Daddies about book or chapbook publishing. These reviews can be yours. Scars Publications, attention J. Kuypers. We’re only an e-mail away. Write to us.

    Brian B. Braddock, Writer (on 1996 Children, Churches and Daddies)
    I passed on a copy to my brother who is the director of the St. Camillus AIDS programs. We found (Children, Churches and Daddies’) obvious dedication along this line admirable.

    The Center for Renewable Energy and Sustainable Technology
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    Brian B. Braddock, WrBrian B. Braddock, Writer (on 1996 Children, Churches and Daddies)
    Brian B. Braddock, WrI passed on a copy to my brother who is the director of the St. Camillus AIDS programs. We found (Children, Churches and Daddies’) obvious dedication along this line admirable.

    Dorrance Publishing Co., Pittsburgh, PA
    “Hope Chest in the Attic” captures the complexity of human nature and reveals startling yet profound discernments about the travesties that surge through the course of life. This collection of poetry, prose and artwork reflects sensitivity toward feminist issues concerning abuse, sexism and equality. It also probes the emotional torrent that people may experience as a reaction to the delicate topics of death, love and family.
    “Chain Smoking” depicts the emotional distress that afflicted a friend while he struggled to clarify his sexual ambiguity. Not only does this thought-provoking profile address the plight that homosexuals face in a homophobic society, it also characterizes the essence of friendship. “The room of the rape” is a passionate representation of the suffering rape victims experience. Vivid descriptions, rich symbolism, and candid expressions paint a shocking portrait of victory over the gripping fear that consumes the soul after a painful exploitation.
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    Paul Weinman, Writer (on 1996 Children, Churches and Daddies)
    Wonderful new direction (Children, Churches and Daddies has) taken - great articles, etc. (especially those on AIDS). Great stories - all sorts of hot info!

    The magazine Children Churches and Daddies is Copyright © 1993 through 2008 Scars Publications and Design. The rights of the individual pieces remain with the authors. No material may be reprinted without express permission from the author.

    Okay, nilla wafer. Listen up and listen good. How to save your life. Submit, or I’ll have to kill you.
    Okay, it’s this simple: send me published or unpublished poetry, prose or art work (do not send originals), along with a bio, to us - then sit around and wait... Pretty soon you’ll hear from the happy people at cc&d that says (a) Your work sucks, or (b) This is fancy crap, and we’re gonna print it. It’s that simple!
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    Hope Chest in the Attic is a 200 page, perfect-bound book of 13 years of poetry, prose and art by Janet Kuypers. It’s a really classy thing, if you know what I mean. We also have a few extra sopies of the 1999 book “Rinse and Repeat”, the 2001 book “Survive and Thrive”, the 2001 books “Torture and Triumph” and “(no so) Warm and Fuzzy”,which all have issues of cc&d crammed into one book. And you can have either one of these things at just five bucks a pop if you just contact us and tell us you saw this ad space. It’s an offer you can’t refuse...
    Carlton Press, New York, NY: HOPE CHEST IN THE ATTIC is a collection of well-fashioned, often elegant poems and short prose that deals in many instances, with the most mysterious and awesome of human experiences: love... Janet Kuypers draws from a vast range of experiences and transforms thoughts into lyrical and succinct verse... Recommended as poetic fare that will titillate the palate in its imagery and imaginative creations.
    Mark Blickley, writer: The precursor to the magazine title (Children, Churches and Daddies) is very moving. “Scars” is also an excellent prose poem. I never really thought about scars as being a form of nostalgia. But in the poem it also represents courage and warmth. I look forward to finishing the book.
    You Have to be Published to be Appreciated.
    Do you want to be heard? Contact Children, Churches and Daddies about book and chapbook publishing. These reviews can be yours. Scars Publications, attention J. Kuypers - you can write for yourself or you can write for an audience. It’s your call...

    Dorrance Publishing Co., Pittsburgh, PA: “Hope Chest in the Attic” captures the complexity of human nature and reveals startling yet profound discernments about the travesties that surge through the course of life. This collection of poetry, prose and artwork reflects sensitivity toward feminist issues concerning abuse, sexism and equality. It also probes the emotional torrent that people may experience as a reaction to the delicate topics of death, love and family. “Chain Smoking” depicts the emotional distress that afflicted a friend while he struggled to clarify his sexual ambiguity. Not only does this thought-provoking profile address the plight that homosexuals face in a homophobic society, it also characterizes the essence of friendship. “The room of the rape” is a passionate representation of the suffering rape victims experience. Vivid descriptions, rich symbolism, and candid expressions paint a shocking portrait of victory over the gripping fear that consumes the soul after a painful exploitation.

    Dusty Dog Reviews, CA (on knife): These poems document a very complicated internal response to the feminine side of social existence. And as the book proceeds the poems become increasingly psychologically complex and, ultimately, fascinating and genuinely rewarding.
Children, Churches and Daddies. It speaks for itself.

    Dusty Dog Reviews (on Without You): She open with a poem of her own devising, which has that wintry atmosphere demonstrated in the movie version of Boris Pasternak’s Doctor Zhivago. The atmosphere of wintry white and cold, gloriously murderous cold, stark raging cold, numbing and brutalizing cold, appears almost as a character who announces to his audience, “Wisdom occurs only after a laboriously magnificent disappointment.” Alas, that our Dusty Dog for mat cannot do justice to Ms. Kuypers’ very personal layering of her poem across the page.
    Children, Churches and Daddies. It speaks for itself.
    Debra Purdy Kong, writer, British Columbia, Canada (on Children, Churches and Daddies): I like the magazine a lot. I like the spacious lay-out and the different coloured pages and the variety of writer’s styles. Too many literary magazines read as if everyone graduated from the same course. We need to collect more voices like these and send them everywhere.
    Fithian Press, Santa Barbara, CA: Indeed, there’s a healthy balance here between wit and dark vision, romance and reality, just as there’s a good balance between words and graphics. The work shows brave self-exploration, and serves as a reminder of mortality and the fragile beauty of friendship.

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