His grandfather told me to mention once again that we are not here in disrespect for the old traditions. But the family has chosen to remember and to learn more about the life rather than to forget. His grandfather says, “If we forget those who have gone, maybe we will also become reclusive and forget those few of us who are left.” So we are saying his name here and remembering. I have been asked by the family to speak of my experience with him, since I had a certain relationship with him and he was absent from your association for so long.
I met Thomas in the Federal Penitentiary. I was very fortunate, in the first year of my graduate work, undertaken en route to my future as a paranormal psychologist, to be part of a research team on a project that was implemented within the mental unit of the prison.
There were three of us involved with the project. We were investigating, if I can use that term loosely, the reports of a guru, who was purported to be a truly remarkable personality, having both the qualities of a charismatic and mystic sage on the one hand and those of a mentally disturbed patient/inmate on the other. The relationship of this guru with the other inmates, and the effect that he had upon them, was the focus of our research. Our mutual friend, Thomas, who in the will of the Creator has now left this mortal condition, was one of a very interesting group of fellows who had, not only come to see him as their spiritual leader, but also actually chummed around with this person, within the confines of the prison mental ward.
For the purposes of our research, we conducted countless interviews with the inmates. I remember, in one of my first conversations with Thomas, I mentioned to him that I’d recently heard some people claim that Taoism is like Native American philosophy and I asked him what he thought of that notion. Thomas told me, quite bluntly, that there is no Native American philosophy to his knowledge, and that “that’s all a crock of shit”. I didn’t go into it further, but I assumed he meant, no collective Native American philosophy. Nevertheless, Thomas conceded that he could, as he put it, “dig the Tao”.
The few short months that I spent with those men in that institution were very painful for me, in coming to terms with certain realities of their lives, but the time was also inspirational and unforgettable. I will tell you, you who are his family, you who are his friends, and you who are friends of his family, and without exaggeration or melodrama, that the memory of Thomas is burnt like a pyrograph into the passageways of my mind. His gaunt, round face with the scarce beard stubble and head-banded hair that stopped short of his shoulders, brought to my mind the photos I’d seen of Geronimo and Cochise and Cochise’s son, Naiche.
When I asked Thomas if he would talk about himself, if he would tell me a story about himself, he told me he’d have to think about it. He said there might be something.
It was a week later that he came up to me and told me that there was something he’d like to tell. Something from the old days, he said. He asked me to come to his cell so he could tell it in private. I always carried a recorder and with Thomas’s permission I recorded our conversation so I’ll tell it, mostly I’ll read it to you, like it happened.
It is noteworthy that Thomas, in speaking about drugs, lumped peyote in with LSD and other hallucinogens. I mention this, because I realize that there are those who could take issue with this sort of lumping, and I want to clarify that it is the way Thomas expressed it, and not something that I have done to manipulate his meaning, or from any agenda of my own.