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Momma’s Lie

Christopher Hanson

Momma said, “Write happy,”
“And make happy,”
Like “Hallmark,” and
“Smile,” if only for the moment,
“Please,” please, smile.

I bit a worm in this apple,
In her plea for me to fib
And once again kill
What I really feel when I smoke,
Listen to the music
And walk down that lonely road.

Is this mother? His or hers?
And yours?
A womb’s whisper that
Cries the pain away,
And leaves in it’s wake the whispers of –
Clean air, the “American Dream”
And no more war.
It’s real, isn’t it? You tell me?

Momma lied and met a wall
As I grew old, embittered
And entered unto –
The air that hurts,
Gods that no longer exist
And loveless places,
Places amidst blood and sorrow
Where I can no longer love you,
Or love even myself for that matter.

Momma smiles, because I’ll write “happy,”
“Happy,” like a 99 cent card,
So that maybe I can live that “lie,”
In her eyes and hopes,
Leaving what I really feel
To the papers never mailed and never shared,
Until now and with only you.
Between you and I, it’s now my time to lie,
As her “truth” was never really “there” –
A “truth,” tasting so much better, sure,
But a “truth,” empty and hollow,
I’ll leave that to her
And far from the steps we take
Everyday,
Rest assured though,
I share with happy,
When I find it,
When I find it.

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