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echo & narcissus

Linda M. Crate

i mostly forget you,
but sometimes
when i touch the deepest wound
unearth the darkest scar
i find you buried
beneath the wreckage;
my mind has repressed us to spare me
from insanity,
but sometimes it still creeks in
when i hear your mother’s voice calling you
away from me or when i imagine you
kissing my cheek before leaving
for work;
and i wish you knew it wasn’t okay
for you to haunt and linger
here—
i love you,
but i don’t need your or want you;
something deeper than i need to remember
has brought me here
to this place, to this chapter
i had to remind myself of my knowledge and my truth
to remind myself that desiring you would be
absurd
after everything;
you were demanding and controlling
in such a subtle way i never noticed until now that
all you wanted me to be was eye candy and arm candy
never desiring or yearning to know me
any deeper than conversations
of the weather
no matter what it was always about you—
a modern day narcissus,
and so since you love yourself so well
i’ll give you a mirror
so i can spare all the girls in the world any more sorrow
when you turn into a flower;
so they can be more than the echoes you reduced
me to
one summer.

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