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i just feel worse
Linda M. Crate
you were so in love with your pain
that you couldn’t find time
to appreciate anyone else
even when they gave up and sacrificed so much
for you,
and you saw the need
to shatter the girl i once was into a thousand
pieces;
when i was put back together the stained glass was
a little different than before
stronger and more beautiful in its scars and imperfections—
i gave you all of me
so you could give me nothing but distance and chains
of memories haunting like ghosts
in the haunted heights of my mind where anxiety likes to compound
with past wounds and pour salt into them,
and i try to look beyond the place
where i stand;
reminding myself that i am better off without you—
sometimes it’s hard because i just feel
worse.
