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Tuesday in Los Angeles
Adam Szetela
The aspiring actor with the Africa-shaped mole above his eyelid adjusts the switch on the machine that looks like an alarm clock from Back to the Future. He describes it as a “looking glass into consciousness.” I grip the two metallic cylinders. He tells me to think about something I hate about myself. I think about the two teenage girls who bolted down the red-carpet hallway, after he asked the blueberry-blonde girl the same question. I think about how our tour guide had become my tour guide.
An hour earlier, I watch Tom and Victoria share a salmon avocado roll.
It is two hours until the UCB theatre opens. Los Angeles is awash in college undergraduates and thirty-something-year-old hipsters who salivate for their stand-up comedy fix. I’ve never seen so many beards, mustaches, and tech t-shirts in my life.
Incognito: I’ve seen some crazy shit.
Techies do it in the dark.
Fuck Ask Jeeves.
“This show is going to be gnarly,” says Tom.
“Will Shia LaBeouf perform tonight?” I ask.
“Will your friend stop talking about Shia LaBeouf?” responds Victoria, as she looks at Tom.
“He has a problem,” says Tom. “He likes to troll people.”
“I’m interested in irony,” I say.
The frog alarm on my cellphone goes off. “Go meditate bitch.”
Outside on Franklin Avenue, I walk past a restaurant called bird’s that welcomes people with gluten intolerance and offers a “special doggie menu for pets,” a drunk woman sitting on a lime Lamborghini, and a homeless man drinking cough syrup. The scene reminds me of the opening chapter in Bret Easton Ellis’s American Psycho. A mix of faux cosmopolitanism, decadence, and poverty.
But no grass to sit on.
After a few minutes, I give up and plop a squat behind a dumpster. In my mind, I name it “Buddha’s trash heap of illumination.” This is the spot, I tell myself. This is where you get enlightened in the twenty-first century. The urban Bodhi tree. The dharma of Reece’s wrappers.
The great Tao of an empty pizza box. Pleasure and pain, it’s all the same.
Until I feel a small piece of broken glass bite my left butt cheek.
It has the “T” from the Tylenol label on it. I let out a loud F bomb. A man with a poodle runs by and shakes his head.
Back on Franklin, I see a stone wall with bushes hanging over the top. Long jump skills acquired from years of suburban house parties broken up by townie cops sends me catapulting over the top. On the other side, there are trees and plants with names I can’t pronounce. Two Walt Disney style pillars hug a wood door with archaic lanterns. There are people dining on baroque, presentation-emphasized dinner plates in a room surrounded by glass. A man gives a toast. A woman smiles. Green grass that reads like a welcome sign for my ass is everywhere.
Cool.
I find a large tree and take a seat behind it. Ninja style. I stare at the building. It’s some kind of hotel. Stone engravings and long, antiquated red curtains drape the windows. After a bit of mind-wandering and scenario making — How much does one night cost? I bet that guy in the window will do cocaine tonight. Rapunzel’s hair couldn’t reach the ground. Are there cameras here? — I focus on my breath. The mental chatter calms down. I feel a subtle breeze on the bare skin of my arms. I dream about Ginsberg dreaming of Whitman in California.
“Excuse me.”
“Huh.”
“You can’t sit here.”
“What?”
“I said you can’t here.”
“I’m sorry. I was looking for a place to meditate. All I found was a dumpster with a cough syrup bottle that I think punctured my jeans. Can you see a hole?” I ask.
“I don’t see a hole. But I’m sorry, you cannot sit here. We have guests coming in and out.”
“Alright.”
“If you would like to come inside though, we give tours to the public.”
“Whose we?” I ask.
“Myself and the other people that work here. Well, I wouldn’t give you a tour. But, I can take you to the front desk to meet someone who will.”
“Thanks, but I think I’ll pass.”
This old, middle-aged white guy, not quite a full ginger, not quite bald, who speaks hesitantly as he fingers the rectangular links on his gold necklace, walks me around the property to the front entrance. The iron gate, with a giant black spade in the center, is open and directly across the street from Sushi Stop. As I walk out, I read a sign with four more gold spades that decorate each corner and a giant gold S wrapped between two gold triangles that look like they are being hurled through space. The ornate letters in the center of the sign say:
Church of Scientology Celebrity Center International.
“How long are tours?” I ask.
“About forty-five minutes. You can ring this bell, if you decide to come back,” he says.
Tom and Victoria are discussing a billboard when I rejoin them.
“The billboard is totally a postmodern phenomenon,” says Tom. “Every day that guy opens his bedroom window, he sees a Godzilla-sized George Clooney looking back at him. It’s total Pynchon shit.”
“I don’t know. I just don’t see why it’s this big thing that we have to keep talking about. It’s just a billboard.”
“Who is Pynchon?” I ask
“That author you obsess over. Didn’t you chat with him in Boston?”
“I don’t think it’s possible for me to ever meet Pynchon. He’s been consumed by his own image. There’s only an idea of Pynchon, some kind of postmodern abstraction. I’ll never know the real Thomas Pynchon.”
“Both of you are academic assholes. Are you capable of talking about, like, the Dodgers, or something?” says Victoria. “And stop using that word postmodern.”
“Do you guys want to go on a tour of a scientology building? It will be totally anti-postmodern shit. And you might see, like Tom Cruise, or something. I was meditating across the street, and some dude told me that I’m essentially the next L. Ron Hubbard.”
“Do I have to sign over the rights to my possessions? Will your new friend give me a lobotomy? Will I get a last meal before men in dark hoods sentence me to wash John Travolta’s gooch for the rest of my life?” inquires Tom as he laughs and almost chokes on his drink.
“Fuck that noise,” says Victoria. “Didn’t you see that HBO documentary on Netflix? Scientology is totally fucked.”
“Yeah, I agree with Tory. I will remain here, in good lighting, surrounded by people, where I will continue to sip my martini,” says Tom.
“Plus, the show starts in about an hour,” says Victoria.
“Come on, one of you guys needs to come with me. It will be more memorable than sitting in this shitty restaurant.”
An Asian man in a waiter’s bowtie gives me a scowl.
“Sorry dude. I honestly am kind of sketched out by this,” says Tom.
“Yeah, I’m with Thomas on this one,” says Victoria.
In front of the gate with the giant spade and the black sign with gold space triangles, I press the silver button. A voice that sounds like a middle-aged man waiting for a call from his child-support lawyer answers.
“Hello.”
“I’m back.”
The half-ginger, half-bald Howard meets me at the entrance. He takes me down a cobble path and through the front door. A black chick, mid-thirties, stands at the counter. He nods to her and walks back outside.
“You’re here for the tour?”
“Yeah.”
“Have you been here before?”
“No.”
“Do you have any background with scientology.”
“Negative.”
“Have you heard anything about scientology?”
“No.”
“Okay. If you wait just one moment, I’ll procure a tour guide.”
That word procure. Was this tour guide lying motionless on a shelf in the dusty basement of a pawn shop? In-between a case of moonshine and a box of child pornography recorded on VHS tapes. Hello. I was sent here to procure a tour guide. I have a young man, with a manbun and a California accent, give him the tour.
“Hey there. I’m Maple.”
Dude.
“I will be your tour guide tonight,” he says.
“Hello, Maple. My name’s Adam,” I say.
“Great, pleasure to meet you Adam.”
We stand for a moment and look at each other. An awkward silence fills the space. Maple is a few years younger than me, in his early twenties. He looks like Seth from The O.C. without the endearing wit or charm. He asks me what I do for work. I tell him that I work at a liquor store.