Letter to MP
August 2, 2000
You’re a rapist, you know.
Has that ever occurred to you
Did you know you could take someone’s life
away from them
When you just thought you were getting laid
Did you know that by giving yourself something
You were taking something away
from someone else?
I guess that’s the way physics
and the laws of human nature work
but did you fucking GET that much?
Did you?
Because you took a shitload from me
And I hate you for it
And I want it back
I really hope it was worth it for you
God, I wish I could get it back
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
with the knowledge I have now
Because I would never let you do
What you did to me
but if I went back
would I have that knowledge
or wqould I just be another stupid girl
that would still be too afraid to fight back
and would I still let you do that to me
and would I still be feeling like this
and would I still want you dead
Oh my god,
these are the rantings
of an insane girl,
of a girl who doesn’t know any better,
of a girl who has been raped,
of a girl who doesn’t know what to do.
A part of me wants to apologize,
but damnit, these are MY feelings
and this is about what YOU did to ME
and I have a right to what I feel
and I have a right to all of this
and I still hate you for it
a part of me wants to know
what your life is like now,
so I can show you what I have accomplished,
so I can show you how good I am
despite your existence,
so I can show you I beat you
but did I?
