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This writing was accepted for publication in the 108 page perfect-bound ISSN#/ISBN# issue/book “The False Portrait” cc&d, v281 (the March 2018 issue) Order this as a 6"x9" paperback book:  |
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enjoy this writing from Janet Kuypers by clicking the title or the cover from the cc&d free 2017 PDF file chapbook: “Finding Peace” of new & classic poems about peace, in its many different forms, performed live 8/5/17 in an Austin Texas show @ the Bahá’í Faith Center, read to cricket sounds and music “Wayward Waltz of the Skewed Mind” by the HA!Man of South Africa. |
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(2017 edit) Janet Kuypers 8/1/06, edited 7/29/17 and 7/29/17 for 8/5/17 show I’m an X Files junkie still, years after the series finale and I just recently watched one of my favorite episodes where Scully meets with a woman affiliated with The American Taoist Healing Center even though Scully is a medical doctor and a scientist she had to ask about a friend who was ill you see, had had heart problems and this man, this medical doctor analyzed his symptoms and admitted himself into the hospital and shortly after he was admitted he almost died, but was saved well, Scully asked this woman is he could be dying from a more serious condition that something in his soul might not be settled and this woman that worked with the Taoist Healing Center told Scully that she used to be a physicist, she was successful and all that time she thought that she was happy but she had only cut herself off from the rest of the world and she was dying inside she was in a relationship with another woman but she couldn’t tell anyone about it for fear of their reactions and eventually she found out she had breast cancer and although the cancer is bad, this woman said it was the cancer that got her attention where she then saw her destructive life she led and after seeing a healer who taught her to let go of her shame and finally be at peace well, that was when her cancer went into remission and everyone looks for answers to problems to be packaged in a nice little box with a bow on top that can just make everything better but it takes a lifetime of understanding to be able to not let illness effect you that way and I’ve seen this episode before but seeing it now, in these circumstances knowing that my mother was dying form cancer and there was nothing I could do about it well, hearing this fictional woman say these words made me almost think, almost start to panic: maybe my mother had lived parts of her life that she did not like, that she did not want but she did them because this was her life and she had a role to play I know she loves her husband and I know she loves her children but I really started thinking that maybe there are things unsettled in her psyche that she needs to make better and then she may be able to really physically heal I told my husband about this X Files episode and I told my husband what I thought, maybe there was something mom had to settle with in her life, in her soul maybe she had to come to peace with some unknown something and he looked at my doe eyes and said no, Janet, no he said I’m sure she doesn’t feel anything like that maybe I’m just grasping at straws because she’s still fighting the cancer and waiting to die but I want to be that crazy one exhausting every source investigating every option I’ll take an idea from a tv show I’ll take anything I can get because it just made me think that maybe, if the the key is coming to peace with everything in your life, maybe then all the demons will go away |
