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11 Jul 1998
20 Aug 1988
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Not Getting Better

Janet Kuypers, October 24, 1998


everyone is thinking
that I’m getting better

but no one knows what it’s like
no one knows what pain
I still go through

yes, I’ve been fighting
but I still don’t see the signs

that anything is getting better

people can tell me that it is
but that doesn’t do me
any good

I don’t wear my glasses
even though wearing them

would make it easier to see
but I don’t,

because I have to train myself
to not need them anymore

maybe that will make me better
at least that’s what I think

I’ve wanted things to be better
for three months now

I haven’t wanted to wait
for everything to get better

and now I still have to wait
and it’s already past due

this getting better thing isn’t fair
at least not to me, isn’t


people think my vision is better

because I’m not wearing my glasses

that’s a good example,
but it’s not

I still can’t see, but I have
to come up with a way in my

head to make it better. So
no one can see the difference.

but i still feel it. I still feel the
difference, and it’s not getting better.

***

edited:

everyone thinks I’m getting better

but no one knows what it’s like
the pain I still go through
I’ve been fighting but I don’t see the signs
that anything is getting better

I still have to wait
it’s already past due

I still can’t see
I come up with a way in my
head to make it better
no one can see the difference.
but i still feel it



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