VANILLA PUDDING
Molly Conway
Describe how one takes a sharp knife
and cuts him up alive
and hangs each piece on a hook, like locker beef
and feels nothing inside
like vanilla pudding
To separate, detach
oneself from one's feelings
is a skill
and makes perfect sense
so how COULD one feel anything
like hate or revenge?
and you say I want to make him suffer
No, I don't
Someday, maybe
those words you use to label feelings
I'll understand
Right now I can only guess
I've only been me
so I can't really know
if the words I use and you use for feelings
have any coming together point at all
maybe we're just using words
that we're both supposed to know
but what if we're wrong?
and my spoken words pass by you
as your's miss me
and we think we're talking to each other?
So I told you the gory stuff
because the thought of it shocked me
sharing it was easy
but now I'm frightened
about the vanilla pudding, especially
but it's probably normal
considering everything
