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I watched you with him
[written at the prom]
[3/24/97]
Peter 'oddball' Mattias Durrill
As I watched you-
With all of your beauty
Formed and tortured
To be heeded as perfect-
I felt as a father
Watching his beloved and only daughter grow-
And in growing-
Grow further and further from him.
As I watched you,
My heart emptied
With only pain remaining
To fill the void
Left in your absence.
As I watched you,
I burned with passion and envy;
and hope.
I yearned to touch you
to know you
to be with you
to love you.