Lyn Lifshin
how it happened
There was this
hotch outside in
the trees. when we
came back the old
people were crying.
After that Iąd shoot
up all the time the
little kids pulling
at my knees crying,
the old woman had
popsicle sticks,
they were scraping
pieces of a woman
off the wall. I
could tell that by
the breasts in a
corner. Even the
animals wouldnąt
come near us
*
You see a guy get his
face blown away you
do things you donąt
want to think of.
By the sixth day I was
mainlining all the
time not to feel
high I didnąt want
to feel anything
*
First you so
scared then itąs
hard to live with
yourself But I
didnąt get hooked
until the hospital
in Japan. You
understand they
nepalmed us by
mistake. First I
couldnąt feel
much. Water wonąt
put it out. Now
I go out in the
sun and I feel
fire. I wanted to
get off morphine
but they said why
not get unemployment
