SHE SAID IT WAS FIVE MONTHS BEFORE I KNEW I WAS PREGNANT
LYN LIFSHIN
I had no idea
but I was gaining
weight I
didn't tell anyone
but my boyfriend.
He was at another
school. I was
not sure how to
tell my parents.
My mother's
Japanese and I
felt I had to get
things together.
We were going
to get married
but I needed
time. It would
be O.K. once I
told them I
knew they'd be
happy but it
had to be a
certain way.
One night, my
eighth month I
think I got off
the phone. My
stomach felt
odd, I thought
I had a flue, went
into the bath
room. Then it hurt
more. I got on
the floor. In 45
minutes the baby
was born. I could
not believe what
was happening.
Nature must have
took over. I cut
the cord. It was
like someone watching
a movie. I saw someone
who looked like me
running the water,
taking a bath,
washing the baby
off and I went across
the street, bought
diapers. Then I saw
a travel agency
sign and I thought
I'd go and take
the baby to show my
boyfriend. It was
like a dream. The
next thing, when I
went to a pregnancy
clinic, for help,
for medical help,
instead they just
took my daughter,
stole her
