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Silent Night

By Peter Scott

Hello how are you
Hi there!
I knew you would call
Is that so
Why so sad?
Because of you
Oh don't act sad
I've given our situation a lot of thought
Really?
Yes I did as you said
Gazed inside my soul
And found...
I don't know
I am so confused
Everything's a jumble of emotions
You believe your plight is bad
I've observed hell
There is a cancer in my stomach
Still
Like a catalog of sensations
I've experienced the entire book
Oh I'm so sorry
No you aren't
You don't care
Yes I do!
Well I don't care
This burning has made me numb
Every joy you've given me
Was forced to vacate
But I love you!
I don't love you
There was a time
I would build dreams in my sky
Proliferate happiness
...
Now it is shame
I am embarrassed to hurt
Sad one careless girl
Could ruin four strong
Destroy a precious Christmas
I hate you!
Peter
No!
Don't attempt to rebuild
Now that you are noticing
Possibly experiencing
True chaos and strife
I wanted to remove your pictures
Crush our letters...
I wanted to kill myself
Just to get through how I cared
And died
Don't say things like that!‘
You are a strong person
I love you
It's just that I can't take
The torment
I want to laugh
Don't give me that
Amy!
Whatever was felt
In your world of fluff
Can't compare to the loss of life
I gave to the birds
They flew away
The damn birds took my gift
And gave up!
I don't know what to say
I do
Fine go and say it then!
You caused me to hate
Genuine resentment and anger
Never Has retribution remained
I'm going to pull the final plug
Remember my letter?
Which one?
The one I never sent
...
I'm gonna' do it
Calm down
Life goes on
We are only one relationship
I am only one girl
No you're not
Yes I am
Wrong
You became something else
I can't hurt you
Nearly like the pain
You caused
So we break-up
You'll find someone who loves you
Even more than I do
I died for you
How about Renee?
She cares
Shit
There never was anything
Between us
Listen
You are smarter than I am
And even I know not to give in
Hear this:
³Click²
What's that!?!
Goodbye
I had to say that
Are you crazy!!!!
All that ever mattered
Was the love people felt
You drained my supply
So I want pain for everyone
Who cares
And Recognition
For my life
What are you going to do?!!?
You said yourself you don't respect suicide!!!!
Peter I love you'
I'll stay with you'
Just don't do it!
You can't do this to me!!!
I can't even think of something
Like that!!!
Read my journals
You will understand
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Peter
Peter!!!
Where are you
Peter
Cut this out!!!
Peter?
Oh God
I love you
I...



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