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Twelve Hundred Poems


Dave Oakes


Twelve hundred poems more or less
I had when I was twenty Five
The summary of my life to that point
Some measurement that I was alive.
When young I saw the cruel side of people
Which left me forever scarred
Only to the paper could I talk of these things
From real discussions I had myself barred
I never considered myself a poet
But those words meant a lot to me
Everything I had felt over the years
All that I’d known them to be.
My first love, my first fight
The drugs and alcohol too
Some discussed the war in Vietnam
Many were written while feeling blue.
I wrote about love and happiness
And about sorrow and pain
There were writings about others
But they were about me in the main.
To me even my reaction to others
How I could feel their hurt
Gave me some insight into my own world
There was no issue I would skirt.
Because these writings meant so much to me
I wanted to share them with my wife
Who promptly threw them in the fireplace
Beginning the end of our life.
She said it was awful wimpy
For a big strong man like me to do
There must be better ways she said
And listed off a few.
But a great deal of me died that day
My past was gone and my future looked bleak
It’s one of the few time I’ve been close to hitting a woman
But that response is only for the weak.
I did develop instant writers block
For years I thought of nothing to write
Until one day a lady in blue
Pulled me from the black and into the light.
I write again from time to time
When I really feel the need
Sometimes even just to make myself laugh
OR when I have a message I hope others heed.
But, I will never be completely whole again
A part of my soul forever roams
It searches and watches and hopes for
The lost twelve hundred poems.






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