DON'T HOLD THINGS IN
Aleja Bennett
Holding things in for years is what I did
Just block it out just not to shed anymore tears
That's why i drank for ten years
I thought it would erase all of my fears.
I usually drank when someone made me upset
the drinking i thought helped to forget
I just never wanted to feel anymore pain
so I would drink over and over again.
I wish I didn't hold things in like I did
growing up no one listened to me when I was a kid
I was immuned to being quiet then as i became
older I buried all the secret pain with liquor.
After all these years of holding things in it is still kind
of hard to express myself today. Im getting better at i more ad more
Instead of holding it in. My writing helps me to release some of these feelings.
I don't want to hold things in anymore, thats the reason I was drinking before
I would like a second chance at life once more.
I wish I was stronger ten years ago before I took my last drink
Wishing I would've stopped to think
Dealing with my painful childhood
Drinking became the only thing that made me fell good.
I didn't have to be scared of anything when I was high
didn't even feel weak to cry because nothing bothered me
that's where I wanted to be
I really thought I was free but I wasn't
Instead I was this hurt little girl
trapped inside a womans body
who wouldn't let it out and talk to anybody.
Im glad that I'm letting it out today in my writing
I really don't want to take a drink
It just might make me sick.
Drinkink is not the way out of a situation
we must start making the right decision.
Some people hold things in then carry it to their grave.
Im glad this didn't happen to me
Now instead Im letting it out as you can see.
Be like me and don't hold things in anymore
I know what holding it in feels like
I don't want to do it anymore
this is the reason i let it out for
I don't want to hurt anymore
So, what are you holding it in for?
