Says He Never Gave a Damn for Me
Stephanie Maher
The moment when you realize you have ruined everything,
Is never as dramatic as you had expected.
Look out the window, the leaves are falling at exactly the same rate,
No matter how broken your heart might feel.
And even though you strongly believed they were connected,
The red crisp leaves falling in the spaces between your heartbeats,
(keeping you safe from that silence)
They are not.
And as I drive, or walk, or answer a question,
I realize how mutually exclusive everything is now that you are gone.
My thoughtless, selfish pushing is finally successful.
And when we spoke, my belief that I was part of this world,
That my hands actually touched things and my voice carried,
Was so much stronger.
