at least i have this

how far will we push each other? i wonder
as we sit in the living room, waging this
emotional battle, knowing that in the end
it will still be with you having your sex
with me, leaving me when you’re through
with me. that is what i’m here for. that is
my function. but at least i have this, at least
i can make you fight me a little more for
it. i know you’ll win in the end, but at least
for these few moments, these few fleeting
moments, i have this control over you.
and then the pain of being with you comes
back, and you win. but let me have this.
just this. i know i’ll get no more. please.

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