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Makes Me Love To Hate You More

December 19, 1998

Over the course of my lifetime
There has been so many things

That I have wanted

And maybe the problem is with the urgency

They say I’m worth it and
They say you’d want me too
Because as they say,
You’d be a fool not to

But the problem is I want everything now
And because this isn’t all up to me
I lose control in the process

I know this doesn’t make sense to you
The way I’m saying these things
But it makes perfect sense to me

And I don’t know if I’m supposed to just
Spell it you for you

Because I’m tired
Of having to spell everything out
When all I want to do is think

I know I am an inpatient little wench

And maybe you think that when I am angry
And my love for you will fade

But You’ve taken this all from me anyway
Well, so far you have

And maybe absence makes the heart grow fonder
And maybe it doesn’t
And maybe it makes me love to hate you more
And maybe my love for you will stay the same

I just know that with my track record
I have to value the people around me
And you have to know that I care

That is my punishment for what I have been through
Maybe it will change
Maybe I’ll get used to waiting for you
Maybe I’ll get used to wanting you, too


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