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Had A Point, 2005 originally written 11-23-98, turned into prose 09-12-05 Maybe you had a point, maybe it’s not just me that does the thinking and maybe I have to stand up for myself. But I know that there are limits and I know what some people are capable of and I want to think that you understand that. I know you want me to be happy. I know that. So maybe I’ll have to take your advice I know I’m supposed to take my time, but I don’t have time. I want everything and I want it now. I know, I know, patience is not one of my virtues But I know there are so many things I want, and I know there are so many things I need. And I want all my dreams to come true. And I’ve always been afraid to ask. I don’t know how to ask any more. There has been so much going on with me. I’ve seen friends dying. I’ve seen loved ones dead, and they’ve tried to test me too, and I fought back and I won and this is all I have to show for it. There was so much I wanted, but I’ve had to shut myself off over and over again. I keep waiting for the happiness to start I don’t know how it starts. But thanks for listening to me and thanks for being one of the only people I know that wants to listen who thinks I have something to say. I need that sometimes, you know. You keep telling me that the man I love is a lucky man, because he gets to hold me at night and he can talk to me and he cam touch my hair... But he doesn’t. Well, maybe that is one of my problems. Well, I don’t know what the answers are to this little problem of mine, and I don’t know if you can help me on this one but... well, I don’t know what the “but” is for I guess I should just say thanks thanks for listening, thanks for being supportive. Thanks for letting me feel like I’m not the only one in the universe who has feelings, who is human. Well, thank you for that. U.S. Government Copyright Chicago Poet Janet Kuypers on all art and all writings on this site completed before 6/6/04. All rights reserved. No material may be reprinted without express permission.