And I Don’t Care
November 15, 1998
I’m sick of people telling me
that they’re glad that I’m okay
and I’m tired of people asking me
and that condescending high-pitched voice
(which is supposed to mean that they care)
how I’m doing
well, I’m fine
I’m the same I’ve been
I know a lot has happened to me
and I know I’ve gone through a lot
and I know that nothing gets better
I know, I know, it all depends on your attitude
that’s what they tell me
with amazing regularity
and it doesn’t do me any good
and I’m still angry
and I’ve still lost part of my life
and maybe in theory I’ll lose more
I don’t know
I don’t care about the beautiful trees
that are growing outside my home
and I don’t care about the chirps I hear
from the birds outside
that’s not a nice way to put it, I know
but there are a lot of things I don’t care about
when the beautiful things have decided
to take a turn for the worse for me
Are things getting better?
Objectively, I can say that I don’t know
and I don’t care
Copyright Janet Kuypers.
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