I Know It’s Not Going To Happen
There are so many things that I think about
maybe that is one of my curses
but I think of these things every once in a while
things that are supposed to make me smile
and things that are supposed to make me angry too
and sometimes I like to think about the good things
whether or not they happen to me
but I can think
and I know these things are not going to happen
but I can fantasize about it
every once in a while
and because I’m here
and I have the time here to think about it
I can think about you
I can think about how you liked me
and I can think about how strong you were
and I can think that you could have been
a good challenge for me
that you would have put limits on me
that you would not have let me
do whatever I want
and maybe that would have been good for me
and I think about how nice it would be
just to hear that you still like me
even after a decade
and I know I should never have let your down
and I know I should never have
looked for someone else
well, for that I’m still paying
and I don’t know if you are married now
or if you ever got married and now
you are going through a divorce
I would like to think of it that way, you know
I suppose you could be single
but I assume that some woman
would have swept you up by now
and someone would have taken you away
from the rest of the women out there
including me
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