Supposed To Be
November 24, 1998
should tell him how I feel
I’m afraid that I would tell him too much
about me
And you’re not the first to tell me that
okay, you’re the second
but now I’m starting to think
that on some levels
this might be a good idea
He called me when he got
back in to town last night
he must have only been home
for five minutes
and to me, it’s a good sign that he called
he’s either honest
or he misses me
or something
or he thought of me
or he was bored
I don’t know
and whatever the reason is
it’s a good thing that he called
and i mentioned
getting a hotel room
for after or “night out”
which is tomorrow
you know, I said, getting a hotel would be good
because then I wouldn’t have to worry
about getting home late
at least that’s what I told him
So I was pushing that line
a little farther
far enough to still be safe
but far enough to still be a risk
he said we’d talk about it
when he called me today
well, he hasn’t called me yet
Who knows if we’ll get
a hotel room
I don’t know
but the idea is there
and well, that’s something
Maybe you were right
that I should take my time
but I’m an impatient girl
and I want the answers yesterday
And maybe something will happen
with me and him
and maybe it won’t be
on my terms
and maybe I’ll have to
get used to that
Yes, I know he loves me
and yes, I know he has
thought about marrying me
but there is no ring in my finger
I know he has been confused
and I know I want to tell him
not to be confused any more
and I want to tell him
that I’m there for him
So thanks for supporting this all
to me, and thanks for suggesting
this all to me, all without trying
well, so, thank you
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