That Adorable Together
there are times when you feel
like the world is crashing all around you
and there are times when you get
a glimmer of hope
and it is at times like those
when you cling on to those glimmers of hope
and yes, sometimes it’s nice
to have those glimmers of hope
you have to hope for something, you know
and now that i live here
and i see the places
i used to frequent
and i think of all the bad things
that have happened to me
bad things here, bad things there
well, sometimes, when i think of the things
that could go wrong in life
i oddly enough still come to you in my head
i think of all the nice things you used to do for me
i think of the way you used to be
so good to me
you acted like you cared
maybe at the time you
didn’t know any better
and maybe at the time
i didn’t know any better either
oh, what am i saying
still looking back
i think about how cute you were
and how nice you were
i wasn’t looking for the football player type
and you just happened to be that adorable
and even though i didn’t know any better
i still knew that you were a good guy
and you were worth it
yes, i might have
made you suffer
and i never meant that pain
my friend in school called you
mister superman
because he never saw you
and he knew you were a football player
and never had the chance to
associate your name with your face
i still have photos of you
ones i used to keep in my wallet
because i wasn’t willing
to even let go every image of you
well, not that fast, that is
i remember how you met me
and my girlfriend at a hotel
in champaign illinois
i was able to use the excuse
“i need to see the town before i move there”
routine
but for me it was just
another opportunity to see you
and i didn’t care about the guy that
drove with you
and i don’t know if we were too
cutesy around each other
in front of our friends
i don’t even know if we were that adorable together
there are so many stories i could tell about you
about how smart you were,
about how strong you were
after all the time that passed
i almost feel that it’s not necessary
for me to tell these stories out loud again
because i know these stories
and i want them remembered
and i know all these stories
and i want someone to share them with me
so yes, after all the pain I go through, I still think about you
and how smart you were, how strong you were
after i see the world falling to pieces around me
when all I can see is that desolation after the holocaust
when I find that glimmer of hope,
no matter how small, no matter how far away,
you cling to it
in so many ways they were my silver lining
my glimmer of hope, my ray of light
like a hand from God in the sky coming down to save me
Copyright Janet Kuypers.
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