trying to make this work
It has been going around in my head
trying to come up with different ways
to make thing better for you
for you
and me
and us
trying to make this whole thing work
I’ve been told to take down the pictures of men
that would piss you off
so I have
even though of most of my friends
are male
and you know, I am a photographer
I’ll give up on that fight too
without you asking
I’ve tried to come up with ways
to make eating vegetables
something other than
something your mother made you do
when you were a little kid
I’ve cleaned up after you
I’ve haven’t complained to you
oh god, I can think of a bunch of things
I have paid your bills for you
I have gone to seminars with you
I have planned things for you
and me
and us
and I am beginning to wonder
if in this whole future prosses
I have to just lose me altogether
because I don’t want that
When I announced I was engaged
someone had to ask me, to whom
and I find myself forgetting
that this isn’t just me me me any longer
and I have been told
that you are supposed to be
the first concern here
and you know, this whole
committment thing
is new to me
not that I’m trying to avoid it
I’m just explaining it
but yes, this is all new to me
and I am still trying
to place all the pieces together
and I want everything
to work out for us
and I want to make sure that I
am making the right move
and that we
are making the right move
isn’t there a guidebook somewhere
that gives you all the answers
because I’ve been looking for
all these answers
and I’m sure they’ve got to be
around here somewhere
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