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but it seems more like she’s resigned herself
she doesn’t want to get up
and she’s been fighting this cancer like mad
she was running errands, cooking
and now the doctors tell her
and she doesn’t want to go back
she’s tired of the fight
but
but I know that people who fight
they have a better chance
mind over matter,
and we come from a strong lot,
I almost died
I wasn’t about to let them win
and I told her that her father,
six months to live
and she fought cancer a decade ago
and she went to the doctor
and she had a clean bill of health
but then the doctors say it’s common
to get leukemia ten years later
has to find another angle
I guess its nicer to call it leukemia
but it figures, okay, they’ll just remove me
so i’ll go for the blood this time
so
so my mother has made this decision
no, wait, let me correct myself,
and she’s letting her soul slip away,
she’s choosing to let it go
and the rest of us aren’t ready
but it looks like she’s decided
and we want to see her more, we
damnit, that woman fought before
they said she was in recovery
she was on her own for months,
because she thought the battle
but now they’ve told her the battle
to keep trying, or to not fight it
I just wish she wouldn’t resign herself
death comes sooner that way
i don’t know if the pain
but I know when I almost died
but I fought like Hell, because
I’ve never had a fight I couldn’t win
but I’ve never faced a fight to the death
knowing that someone so strong
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She’s Made Her Choice
the doctors say it’s her choice
and she’s decided
because she’s lost the will to live now
why should she? she thinks
she was feeling better
people were amazed at her recovery
chemo won’t work any more
to the hospitals
so she made her choice
who want to live
of lasting longer
so to speak
her and I
and I fought like Hell
by killing me
when the doctors gave him
he lived to six years
breast cancer, a radical hysterectomy
for her annual check-up appointments
she beat it this time
with her history
because you see, that cancer
to get you
than cancer of the blood
from the organ I attack
can’t get rid of me then
this decision to die
she’s resigned to die
I think
and
to lose her yet
to just die, get it over with
want her to fight
even with the leukemia
and although she tired easily,
doing well
was over, and she won again
isn’t won, but she has the choice
well, she made her choice
is too much for her
I hurt like Hell,
I’m a fighter, just like her
so I’ve always fought
but in a way, this kills me
just resigned
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