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Janet Being Alone 2005Started 11/28/98, turned into prose 09/25/05
I know there that are certain thing that I have wanted. I know Im picky, and I know I need attention and love and support... And all this time I thought I could get that from you.
Maybe I wanted to see you, and it wasnt that I wanted to see your family. Im getting used to wanting to see your family, but I dont know what Im trying for, if youre now even going to be there. That hasnt been the easy part to my job. There have been a lot of parts to this job that arent easy, and I was hoping for good news. I was hoping for someone to understand. I have been hoping for that light at the end of the tunnel sometimes.
I try to learn and understand things, beccause that something that can make me happy...
I dont know how much nicer I can be, and I dont know how many times Im going to get kicked in the teeth for it. And no, Ive come to realize that there is no light at the end of the tunnel for me. The waiting isnt enough. I have to just move on. I dont know what Im moving to, but I have to be moving to something.
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