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See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poem Janet Spinoto, Mother of 3 4/24/16 at Chicago’s 2016 Poetry Bomb at Bagdad Cemetery in Leander Texas (filmed with a Canon Power Shot camera).
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See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poem Janet Spinoto, Mother of 3 4/24/16 at Chicago’s 2016 Poetry Bomb at Bagdad Cemetery in Leander Texas (filmed with a Sony camera).

Janet Spinoto, Mother of 3

I knew so many people
If only I mourned so many people
I wonder if johannes remembers me
Am I supposed to cry for him?
Am I supposed to remember him?

I wish I knew of more than his name
I still respect you, to this day
Nineteen years after you died
For a cause you believed in. Or a chance moment
I’ll bet. My memory of you
and a memory your grand kid remembers
This is what I’ll carry with me.
And this is what I’ll keep until death.

I’ll always remember you this way
trust me on that one
I’ll make it true to you
and your family

Sometimes I need more words, more signals
to answer all my questions
and fill in all the gaps and make our lives better.
Then I’ll answer all the questions
for me and you
and everything in-between

This will be my way to save you,
you know, and me, and the rest of the world.
I wonder if this will be my way
to make sense of you,
and me - and love, and so much more.

I don’t remember these details
about your life
and I don’t remember
you disintegrating before me.
And before you cared about you
and when it meant nothing to me.


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