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Listen live to the 2nd Axing at the open mic Sing Your Life

Watch this YouTube video (3:37) studio session “etc.” book reading for audio CD 08/14/07

Watch this YouTube video Live at Creation Relation (reading poetry live outdoors in Tennessee, Kentucky, Indiana & Illinois 05/10/09

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poem Once Wanted You as my Friend 10/6/15 at Quenchers open mic in Chicago (Cfs)

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poem Once Wanted You as my Friend 10/6/15 at Quenchers open mic in Chicago Cps

See YouTube video (Cfs) of Janet Kuypers reading 5 poems: Once Wanted You as my Friend, Escaping Every Cage, and a Scars medley (based on parts of the prose poem Scars and the poems Scars 1997 and Scars 2000, then Too Far and Children, Churches and Daddies 10/6/15 at Quenchers open mic in Chicago

See YouTube video (Cps) of Janet Kuypers reading 5 poems: Once Wanted You as my Friend, Escaping Every Cage, and a Scars medley (based on parts of the prose poem Scars and the poems Scars 1997 and Scars 2000, then Too Far and Children, Churches and Daddies 10/6/15 at Quenchers open mic in Chicago

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poems “My Father, Shooting an Animal” and “What It Felt Like” and “Once Wanted You as my Friend” (read for the future Oeuvre audio CD release) at Austin’s Recycled Reads 7/15/17 (from a Panasonic Lumix camera).

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poems “My Father, Shooting an Animal” and “What It Felt Like” and “Once Wanted You as my Friend” (read for the future Oeuvre audio CD release) at Austin’s Recycled Reads 7/15/17 (video filmed from a Sony camera).

Once Wanted You as my Friend Janet Kuypers I should laugh about this. I know that people will probably hear your stories and think I was a bad and evil girl. I don’t care. I didn’t want to be a part of your life any more. I wanted you as my friend after I was falling apart and I thought I had no one and I wanted my life back and because I believed you. You told people I was your best friend and you are a liar, plainly put. I didn’t know you’d fuck your best friend’s date. Hell, fuck the guy for a month until your neurotic ego can’t take it.                 I don’t give a shit                 about a year and a half                 recovery from that                 evil spell of yours                 but I should never have forgiven you. Maybe you need attention from every penis you can get it from, maybe you’re more of an attention whore than I could ever be, than anyone I know could ever be, by my neurotic tendencies didn’t keep me in my parent’s house while I studied for another job because I didn’t know what the Hell I wanted and maybe my tendencies didn’t make me lose my friends or go through men like hand rags or give me sexually transmitted diseases and didn’t leave me fucking someone else while I was engaged                 “I’ve never orgasmed                 while having sex with him,” you’d say well, I don’t know what to tell you. All I can think is that you’ve made this bad                 out of straw and fabric scraps                 and I don’t care if it rained yesterday                 and your precious bed smells like shit                 and you’ve got nothing clean to grab on to well, you’ve made that bed and now you have to lie in it. so so have a good night’s sleep while you try to make sense of what you think is insane                 God, the only insane thing                 is that your man still puts up with you                                 or how much of your story                                 haven’t you told him? So yes, I should be laughing because you’re the one filled with so many questions. Please, for your own benefit, for OUR own benefit, get them figured out. I wanted to cut off ties from you sooner but I would have had to lose one of my closest friends in the process and we couldn’t have that (of course not). But I’m glad your warped mentality misconstrued what I said                 and that is exactly what you did                                 nothing more, nothing less but you at least got the idea because no, I don’t want to be a part of your life any longer and I don’t want to openly condone what you’ve done to your man                 and what you’re doing to your man and I want to walk away from this unscathed                 so I think I will. Copyright Janet Kuypers. All rights reserved. No material may be reprinted without express permission.