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If She’s There

when I was on the phone with her yesterday
mom said she was going to go back home,
across the country

and I told her that I’ll visit her
maybe in July, after she gets there
and she replies

If I’m there

and you know, under normal circumstances
she could say that because, who knows,
they might go to Tunica

to gamble for a weekend or something
but no, if she might be out of town
she’d say so

so just hearing her say “if I’m there”
was just one of the infinite number of ways
it hits home

if she’s there, she says

I know I’m planning to see her because she’s dying
I know our lives are turned upside-down
because she’s dying

but every little thing said now, no matter
how innocuous, is like another
nail in her coffin

and I can’t pull those nails out
I would if I could, I’d scrape my fingers raw
I’d bleed a river

but I can’t get my fingertips under
those nail heads
and I have to sit here

and let time tick by, until the inevitable
while the tears continue to cry a river

tick, tock, tick, tock


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See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers’ 4 poems 10/5/15 at the Chicago open mic Weeds (Cps), w/ Gouge Out Their Eyes, If She’s There — which led into She’s Going Home, and ending with Some People Want to Believe.



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