My Memorials To You
08/17/06
I see the ring you’ve given me
when you were ready to die
I have no choice mow,
whenever I go out
I wear this ring on my middle finger
with this big blue topaz stone
I wear it like a badge of honor
I wear it like it’s your tombstone
I wear it like I’m some sort of martyr
but I also see the ring I got from you long ago
it’s a ring from dad of an ankh
with a small diamond in the center
signifying everlasting life
and mean to signify
his everlasting love for you
I’ve had that ankh ring
for I don’t know how many years
I even remember once wearing it
when I was in California
meeting with Joe’s religious parents
and I tried to make the right impression
but after the visit
Joe told me that he’s sure they noticed
the pagan symbol on my finger
and I was furious, I tried to explain
that ring was a symbol
of my father’s everlasting love
for my mother
but I don’t think he cared
and I’m sure his parents didn’t care
and looking back,
I’m sure people always
carry all their baggage around with them
and think whatever they want to think
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it’s funny,
I don’t wear that ankh ring so much now
mostly because I’m afraid
that I’ll get that loop on top of the ankh
or that point at the bottom of the ankh
caught on something, anything
and maybe break the ring
I don’t know,
I guess it’s funny
how differently
I can treat
my memorials to you
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