[the Writing of Kuypers]
and I was about to write him back,
you don’t have it so bad
and that’s when I decided
isn’t that funny
that happens to me now,
and I’ll go about my day
well, you get the idea
it’s like a cycle now
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Manic Depressive or Something
while working,
one of my clients informed me
they have to take days
to move their ninety-one year old mother
(for the sixth time in ten years),
and he doesn’t know
is he has the strength to do this sort of thing
saying that I’m sure I’m younger than him
(because we only correspond by letter)
and my mother is seventy-five
and is dying
so
you mother’s still living
and
not to write them back
I don’t like revealing
that much of my personal life, you know
I write, but I don’t want
to reveal that much of my personal life
I know I’m writing now
but I’m not writing to anyone
I’m just getting it out of my system
I’ll start to think about it
and it will bring me to tears
and then I’ll have to clean myself up
and I’ll have to readjust
to everyone else having a normal life
and anything can happen
that will remind me again
and I’ll fall apart
just a little more again
and I’ll clean myself up again
and
like I’m manic depressive or something
because when I forget about it
I can laugh and have a great time
and when I’m in those in-between stages
no one notices at the grocery store
that I’m losing my mother
I don’t let it on
I don’t act happy
I don’t act sad
I just live in that in-between time
until I remember again
and drop down again
and I’m depressive again
until the cycle lets me go back up
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