poem Tired of Trying, a poem about feeling alone when you go out and no one talks to you, wondering if you’re good looking or interesting or if anyone cares about you, By Chicago Poet and performance artist Janet Kuypers

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Tired of Trying
Janet Kuypers
from the “Depression - the singles” collection
7/7/12
I’m tired of trying
to have a positive attitude.
I’m tired of trying
to tell myself
that I’m worth something,
that I’m good looking,
that I have something to say
that someone wants to hear.
So I go to a bar,
and I stand on my own,
and I leave on my own,*
and ... I’m sorry.
I’m tired of trying.

* from the Smiths’ “How Soon is Now”

See YouTube video 9/12/1 of Janet Kuypers at Chicago’s the Art Colony open mic reading her poems Just Making Face After Face, Tired of Trying, Bitter Suburbs, Pock-Marked Molehills, Dead Grass Fires, Ever Consumed Goat, Even With no Wish Bone, and The Power to Tell Her / The Power To See Her (from a Canon Power Shot, w/ a heat wave filter).

See YouTube video 9/12/15 of Janet Kuypers at Chicago’s the Art Colony open mic reading her poems Just Making Face After Face, Tired of Trying, Bitter Suburbs, Pock-Marked Molehills, Dead Grass Fires, Ever Consumed Goat, Even With no Wish Bone, and The Power to Tell Her / The Power To See Her (filmed with a Canon Power Shot camera).

my hand to an anim of jkchair