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See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her 2019 poems “Bolt of Lightning”, “Overtake Me” (written during National Anxiety and Depression Week), and “Out of Wedding Dresses”, live 5/18/19 at Austin’s “Recycled Reads” (from a Panasonic Lumix 2500 camera).

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her 2019 poems “Bolt of Lightning”, “Overtake Me” (written during National Anxiety and Depression Week), and “Out of Wedding Dresses”, live 5/18/19 at Austin’s “Recycled Reads” (from a Panasonic Lumix T56 camera).

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her Down in the Dirt 5/20 book “Seasons” poems “Magnesium Burn”, “unsung”, “guard”, “Overtake Me”, “Victory Day, after Midnight”, “Volumes in Flames while the Spirit Lives”, “Vase of Tulips”, “Killing Women for Healing”, and “Unity for Humanity” during the “Poetic License open mic 5/3/20 home edition” she hosted through a Facebook event page (filmed from a Panasonic Lumix 2500 camera; on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram and Tumblr).

See Facebook live video of Janet Kuypers reading her Down in the Dirt 5/20 book “Seasons” poems “Magnesium Burn”, “unsung”, “guard”, “Overtake Me”, “Victory Day, after Midnight”, “Volumes in Flames while the Spirit Lives”, “Vase of Tulips”, “Killing Women for Healing”, and “Unity for Humanity” during the “Poetic License open mic 5/3/20 home edition” she hosted in Austin, but globally through a Facebook event page (from a Samsung S9 camera).

See YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poems “Our Excuses for Celebrating” (written on 5/5 for Cinco de Mayo), “Full Stop” and “Kinds of Interference” (highlighted for 5/4, May the fourth be with you), and “Overtake Me” (written 5/6 during National Anxiety and Depression Awareness Week), from the Janet Kuypers poetry book “Every Event of the Year (Volume one: January-June)” as a bonus reading 5/5/20 the “Poetic License open mic 5/3/20 home edition” she hosted through a Facebook event page (from a Panasonic Lumix 2500 camera, and was posted on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram and Tumblr).

See Facebook live video of Janet Kuypers reads her poems “Our Excuses for Celebrating” (written on 5/5 for Cinco de Mayo), “Full Stop” and “Kinds of Interference” (highlighted for 5/4, May the fourth be with you), and “Overtake Me” (written 5/6 during National Anxiety and Depression Awareness Week) from her perfect-bound ISBN# collection book “Every Event of the Year (Volume one: January-June)” for the “Poetic License open mic 5/5/20 bonus reading” (filmed from a Samsung S9 camera).

See a YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poems “Magnesium Burn”, “Overtake Me”, “Victory Day, after Midnight”, “Volumes in Flames while the Spirit Lives”, “Vase of Tulips”, “Killing Women for Healing”, and “Unity for Humanity” from the v171 “Seasons” section of the Down in the Dirt 5-8 2020 collection book “Outside the Box” live 8/5/20 (filmed from a Panasonic Lumix 2500 camera; posted on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram and Tumblr).

See a Facebook live video stream of Janet Kuypers reading her poems “Magnesium Burn”, “Overtake Me”, “Victory Day, after Midnight”, “Volumes in Flames while the Spirit Lives”, “Vase of Tulips”, “Killing Women for Healing”, and “Unity for Humanity” from the v171 “Seasons” section of the Down in the Dirt 5-8 2020 collection book “Outside the Box” live 8/5/20 (streamed from a Samsung S9 camera).

Overtake Me Janet Kuypers 5/6/19 (during National Anxiety and Depression Awareness Week) I can tell no one. No one understands what I go through; no one has lived the life I’ve led. Yes, there were good times, but the traumas, oh, sometimes the traumas overtake me. And I can tell no one. And yes, the few times I have gone to a therapist I have cried, cried when I thought I was finally over the things that have tortured me. But if I’m over them, why do I struggle still and why do I feel so alone, even in a crowded room. No one want to hear about a person suffering. They think that life can’t be that bad, and they’re convinced that I’m choosing to ignore the good things in life. But when demons haunt you, it’s hard to look chipper and think that things are okay. It’s hard to smile when you walk in the sun, and you think that this could be the day a car careens into you, to put you into that hospital again, where you try to piec your lifee together. But since this all started my life has never been together, and this I can tell no one. Even after seeing a doctor who suggested I could take anti-depression medication, I thought of the vegetables I’ve seen who live on those drugs, and thought, no. I’d rather feel something, even if it’s depression, versus feel a muted nothing instead. So these are the choices I make, and these are the battles I take, and about this, I can tell no one. Yes, these walls feel like they’re closing in around me, but oddly enough, these walls are the closest thing to me, and since I’ve got no one I’m not sure I want to let them go.

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