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The demons walk the streets.Fritz Hamilton
The demons walk the streets.
Psychotics are welcome, murderers accepted,
Liberals are plowed under.
For 99 percent of us to survive is a bitch.
Like a whore, it’s the only way to get it down.
Baudelaire’s solution is art
His hated father Aupick gave him the
The greatest poet of France fits the American dance.
Aupick gets the accolades, Baudelaire gets shit, & we won’t get it back, Mac! WE WON’T GET IT BACK ... !
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Tired of runningFritz Hamilton
Tired of running/ tired
to run myself to death/ tired
of trying to produce for the machine instead
increase my production for no extra pay/ tired
more important thanmyself/ finally
dry dead ass because
go to the can when I have to for fear of slowing
go find a new outhouse if I don&8217;t like it, &
they can give my job to some other
clean the shit off the Canco steps while
hear my song echo back to me, &
the carp can shit him out right in the lake for
shove yourself up Canco&8217;s ass, &
I&8217;m still !
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The Last Time I ProposedLiam Spencer
It had been a rough and wild ride that had gone on for more than two years. In the beginning, it was truly wonderful, as many relationships are. She was thirty seven and had an upcoming divorce when we got together. She wanted good times and to be wanted. There had been other guys for eight months or so, and she had gone through rebounds already. Her dating adventures had been less than stellar. I had just cut lose after being a workaholic for many years. My divorce had been years prior. My dating adventures had been a bit better, but consisted of a few quick, cheap hookups that lacked romance or even much fun.
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Grab My Blackened HandBrian LooneyYou don’t want these ink-stained hands on you. You don’t want them to descend, to smear darkness across your body. You’re a pure creature, an angel of the light, basking in its halo, the holy spectrum, the fury of the summer. I wish you would disagree instead of standing there, mute. I wish you would argue your point, press it against my heart until the blood spurts. It’s so walled in that any sensation would be a pleasure. That is my status, now cut the right ventricle. I wish you wouldn’t look away like that. Your indecision is agony. Well I’m not gonna stand here and watch your wheels turn. Only a wicked woman would weigh her options now, when she knows what’s really at stake. Make a decision. Grab my blackened hand, or leave us both suspended.
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Jaime Walton reads the Brian Looney My 2012 Down in the Dirt poem Grab my Blackened Hand with live piano music by Gary straight from the June 2012 issue, live 6/9/12 at Gallery Cabaret’s the Café Gallery in Chicago |
Brian Looney BioBrian Looney was born 12/2/85 and is from Albuquerque, NM. He likes it when Lady Poetry kicks him in the head. The harder the better. Check out his website at Reclusewritings.com.
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A Man of Good CheerTom Ball
The man of good cheer said, “Don’t give up on your dreams no matter what.”
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Working at Harris TeeterTravis Green
I used to work at Harris Teeter, stocking
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4 September 2008Sarah Lucille Marchant
stupid heart, fumbling
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Sarah Lucille Marchant BioSarah Lucille Marchant is a Missouri resident and university student, studying literature and journalism. Her writing has appeared in publications such as Line Zero, Every Day Fiction, A Cappella Zoo, and Straylight.
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Between the Barbed Wire and the
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Lady KillerDonald C. White Jr.
The first thing he noticed was her neck. It was the first thing Rick Smith ever saw. Her name was Lisa Montgomery and she was the next victim. He scowled, because the sweater she wore partly obscured the object of his attention. So, he contented himself with observing the underside of her chin, and how it proceeded down to her throat. “Hello, Lisa.”
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For the KidsAmanda E. Ronan
It started with a photograph- 2 men, 1 woman, 2 children, both girls - arranged tall in back, short in front. The older of the children, a surly looking teenager, can barely contain her contempt- of life, of family, of putting on a show. The younger child grins widely, missing a tooth or two. The woman, early 40s-ish, smiles uncomfortably. The two men, one early 40s-ish, one early 30s-ish, beam happily, without notice- of life, of family, of contempt.
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CrossroadsKerry Lown Whalen
Snow gunned the Triumph 900 and merged with the traffic in Darlinghurst Road. He gulped in a lungful of early morning air, his head bursting with options for his future. For years he’d led a carefree existence, choosing to work at night and surf all day. Then he met Shelly. Gorgeous, easygoing, successful and ambitious, Shelly was the best thing that had happened to him and he would do anything to keep her.
He heard Shelly’s hair dryer blasting from the bathroom signaling she’d soon be heading off to work. Dammit. He’d wanted to cook Eggs Benedict, spoil her a little before she left home. He kicked off his shoes, pulled off his shirt and pants and headed for the balcony. His favorite board shorts hung there, damp and sandy. He banged them against the bricks, tugged them on and wandered inside.
He tipped muesli into a bowl and drowned it in apple juice. On an empty stomach, he couldn’t face milk. Perhaps it was the pills. He wandered out to the balcony, squinted at the surf and spooned muesli into his mouth, ideas swirling around his head. He’d never considered a career before; never had reason to. Until Shelly came into his life, it had suited him to work nights. And his sideline was lucrative too. But Shelly earned big bucks and he wanted her respect. Should he go into real estate? He didn’t have a clue. And thinking about it was doing his head in.
Snow rocked up early that night and spread the word around the club he had good gear for sale. His job as a glassie gave him access to the back where customers lit up, the smoke so potent it made his head spin. He collected glasses in the bar area, nodded to Danny and Mal, and stacked the dishwasher. If luck was on his side, he’d make a shed-load tonight.
The next day Snow lazed with Shelly on the balcony, drinking coffee and watching board riders bobbing off the point. An offshore breeze flattened the swell, a smattering of white caps ruffling its surface. The shrieks of children paddling at the water’s edge split the air.
On his way to work he called at Trigger’s flat. He rapped twice on the door before it opened.
Shelly drove through heavy morning traffic to the office and parked her SUV around the corner. She planned to follow up some prospects from an open-house, then inspect a property in Dickson Street at eleven.
Snow surfed all day, paddling out to the point where the swells peaked. From out the back he carved some long rides all the way to the beach. As the sun crept across the sky the waves got messier and he copped a hammering. He jogged home, hosed off his board and eased his aching muscles under a stinging shower. He didn’t have to work tonight and planned to cook a special meal for Shelly.
Rain drummed on the roof all night, water from the gutters sloshing down the pipes and gurgling into the drain. While Snow tossed about in bed making plans, the storm moved out to sea, taking with it lightning jags and thunderclaps.
At Le Rendezvous, red-and-white checked cloths covered the tables and waiters glided around them carrying plates fragrant with food. Snow and Shelly sat at a quiet table for two overlooking the bougainvillea-shaded courtyard. He stared across the table at her, admiring her poise. This was Shelly’s kind of restaurant.
At the back of the club Snow worked like a machine to get his regulars sorted. Then Trigger rang.
Snow rapped twice on Trigger’s door and followed him down the dark hallway to the kitchen where plates, mugs, pans and cutlery cluttered the sink.
The following night Snow cruised down to the beach on the Triumph. A few money-making ideas floated around his head, but he dismissed them. He needed quick money – and a career. Strung like Christmas lights along the esplanade, restaurants did a thumping trade with diners lining up for tables along the footpath. An Asian eatery at Bondi would be a goldmine and he’d enjoy cooking for the hordes. Shelly might want to be involved too. He turned his eyes seawards and watched arc after arc of white water rush to shore and collide with the sand. The rhythm calmed him, helped him make a decision. There was only one thing to do. He made the call.
As the sun crested the horizon, fiery beams struck the bedroom wall. Snow flung an arm over his eyes and reached for Shelly.
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Kerry Lown Whalen biographyKerry Lown Whalen lives with her husband on the Gold Coast of Australia. She has won prizes in literary competitions and had short stories published by Stringybark Publications, Bright Light Multimedia, Pure Slush and Down in the Dirt magazine.
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It’s Called Sitting
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WarmBob Strother
Lucas Granger pulled the thin cotton blanket tighter around his shoulders and peered over the back seat. The car, a twelve-year-old ’70 Dodge sedan, sat nosed-in to a row of bushy, red-berried hollies bordering the Walmart parking lot. He shivered despite the blanket and two layers of clothing covering his skinny body.
Lucas couldn’t feel his fingers or his feet. The wind, now full of snow, howled around him, burning his ears and adding to the tears he cried in frustration. He’d walked in what he figured was the general direction of downtown, searching the streaming traffic for a police car. If he could spot one and flag it down, they’d take him to his mother. But the task had proven futile.
Hoyt Williams chewed and swallowed the last bite of his Cantonese chicken, pushed back from the motel room desk he’d used as a dining table, and carefully folded down the cardboard flaps of the grease-stained take-out containers. The fast food Chinese restaurant wasn’t exactly gourmet, but it was cheap and within walking distance. He dropped the remnants of his dinner into the wastebasket and tied the edges of the thin plastic basket liner into a tight knot. Didn’t need a smelly reminder of dinner plaguing him through the night; the acid reflux he suffered on the road would be quite enough.
Lucas kept waiting, expecting at any moment to hear the footsteps of the man who had sent him running for the alcove. But when he dared to open his eyes, the man was gone. After a few minutes, his breathing returned to normal. The wind raged outside his dank refuge, snow swirling like a swarm of mad moths. Lucas tucked his hands under his armpits. He wanted—no, desperately needed—to get up and find his way back to the motel office. But what if the guy’s waiting just outside the alcove, ready to grab me? No, it was safer there, in the dark. He closed his eyes again.
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FAMILY DIARYSteven PelcmanTHE FARM 1919
Part 1
The low light makes it hard
Those same hands
And I would watch him
I hear the shuffling in my sleep
That carries my grandfather’s laughter,
Part 2
The tall grass and wild flowers
Grandfather’s warm knees
And Momma’s quiet gestures
Part 3
The cold sun dances
And only stops to drink water
And then the struggling of plough and horse
Part 4
My sister skips through
She lives
Part 5
We find Grandfather
Perhaps knowing that only days later,
FAMILY DIARY
Part 1
I have always wondered
But as a young man
Buckets of water
Part 2
On Sunday morning
I watch Jen
FAMILY DIARY
Part 1
The house smells
And with each turn
FAMILY DIARY
Part 1
When I close my eyes
They are all gone now:
I feel them within me, always,
If you were to dig deep
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Steven Pelcman BioSteven Pelcman is a writer of poetry and short stories who has spent the past few years completing the novels titled RIVERBED and SPENDING TIME and books of poems titled, WHERE THE LEAVES DARKEN and LIKE WATER TO STONE. He has been published in a number of magazines including: The Windsor Review, Paris/Atlantic, The Innisfree Poetry Journal, Voxhumana magazine, Nomad’s Choir, Fourth River magazine, Salzburg Poetry Review, River Oak Review, www.enskyment.org and many others. He has been nominated for the 2011 Pushcart prize. Steven resides in Germany where he teaches in academia and as a business language trainer and consultant.
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On the Recycling Day: Washington DCChangming Yuan
One neighbor took out a blue box
Another carries out a yellow bag
A third pushed out a green bin
Behind every house in a neighboring back alley
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Janet Kuypers reads the Changming Yuan May 2012 Down in the Dirt poem On the Recycling Day. Washington D.C. with live piano music by Gary |
Watch the YouTube video of a reading of the poem straight from the June 2012 issue, live 6/9/12 at Gallery Cabaret’s the Café Gallery in Chicago (w/ live piano from Gary) |
Changming Yuan bioChangming Yuan, author of Chansons of a Chinaman and 4-time Pushcart nominee, grew up in rural China and published several monographs before moving to Canada. With a PhD in English, Yuan teaches independently in Vancouver and has poetry appear in nearly 470 literary publications across 19 countries, including Asia Literary Review, Best Canadian Poetry, BestNewPoemsOnline, Exquisite Corpse, London Magazine, Poetry Kanto, Poetry Salzburg, SAND and Taj Mahal Review.
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Let’s All Relax HereJames Kowalczyk
After the towers fell, anti-Muslim sentiment, despite Mayor Guiliani’s efforts to curb it, still permeated the city—like the stench of stale urine creeping through a subway station—invisible yet potent. Some New Yorkers didn’t understand that not every Muslim is a holy warrior waging holy war.
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James Kowalczyk short bioJames Kowalczyk was born and raised in Brooklyn but now lives in Northern California with his wife and two daughters. His work has appeared in both print and online publications.
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The History TeacherJohn Ragusa
I enjoy my work as a college professor at night school. Teaching has always been a pleasure for me, and I wouldn’t give it up for anything. I wouldn’t have any other job. It’s a joy to give information to my students; I’m never happier than when I’m behind the podium, giving a lecture on American History.
I’m equally competent at informing people of the personal lives of legendary Americans; this is even more fascinating than the public facts about them. When I talk about an important person, my students get to learn about the private life of the man or woman. No one is better at knowing these things as I am.
I’m not skilled to teach anything but American History. It is the subject I was born to teach.
My teaching career must be successful, since I’ve been doing it for decades now. The decision to teach was a wise choice for me to make.
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Mario PolzettiRod Hamon
“Just ‘cause you’re part of the family, you think you can cross me?”
The winter sun shone weakly through the east-facing window of Detective Dabrowski’s office onto a desk piled high with papers. Behind it sat a man in his thirties with gangling legs that seemed to go on forever. His spiky hair and bewildered expression gave the impression he’d been electrocuted. But Leroy Dabrowski always looked that way.
Dabrowski returned to the police precinct later that day to report his findings to the Chief.
At eleven fifteen p.m. three days later, the emergency services receive a call from Mario Polzetti. “It’s my wife. I’ve just come home. She’s been shot. I don’t know what happened. I need an ambulance – quick!”
Mario Polzetti arrived at the hospital and demanded to speak with the attending doctor.
Unconvinced of Polzetti’s innocence, Dabrowski checked out Mario’s alibi and confirmed that he was at dinner with business associates at the time of the murder, although most of those at the dinner were known criminals.
Next day, Dabrowski drove to Polzetti’s house. He strutted down the path leading to the entrance door, his long arms swinging from side to side. He knocked loudly. The door opened.
A forensic examination of the revolver revealed nothing; certainly no powder residue.
Mario visited his wife, Gilda about once a week, but spent most of his time doing business on his cell phone. Sometimes he spoke to the doctor about his wife’s condition.
Mario was at his wife’s bedside reading a book one night a few weeks later when he heard a noise and looked up. She seemed to be making an effort to speak. Although her eyes remained closed she continued for some time trying to form words, but then stopped.
Early next morning, there was a knock at Polzetti’s door. it was Detective Dabrowski with another policeman. “We have a warrant for your arrest.”
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her eyes,Elena Botts
wreathed in shadow
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Jenene Ravesloot reads the Elena Botts May 2012 Down in the Dirt poem Her Eyes with live piano music by Gary |
Watch the YouTube video of a reading of the poem straight from the June 2012 issue, live 6/9/12 at Gallery Cabaret’s the Café Gallery in Chicago |
Elena Botts BioElena grew up in Maryland, and currently lives in Northern Virginia. She is still attending school. She likes to run. And write.
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Family and DutyDaniel J Roozen
Screams echoed inside her head. They frantically called out her name: “Ariel! Ariel!” The thought that there was something wrong flittered by on the edge of her consciousness. There must be a good reason why they were calling out to her, but she felt so drowsy. She fought to keep her eyelids open and breathe naturally; she couldn’t breathe. Something important must be going on, and she had an uncontrollable urge to laugh, but her mind could no longer make sense of it. As her eyelids dropped and she drifted off to sleep she wondered why her legs were above her head.
“Ariel, get back to the ship immediately,” Harley’s voice came over the comms.
The door to her white room opened. She noted his uniform, a silver and black close-cut jump suit with a belt and angled shoulder pads, but it took a full five seconds before she registered his face. Ariel dropped her computer tablet and ran for the breach in the ship’s hull, the quick exit back to her ship. ‘Running’ in her space suit meant putting one foot in front of the other in a slow walk, fighting against the magnetic constrictors in her boots which held her safely on the hull of the derelict, rather than risk floating in the vastness of cold space. With Harley screaming in her headset, she decided to forgo safety. She kicked hard as she turned off the magnetic constrictors in her boots.
Ariel shook the memory from her head, long auburn locks flipping in her face, determined to stay in the here and now with her Uncle. “You raised me to survive, Marcus. That’s what I was doing.”
“The ship just appeared out of nowhere,” Harley said. “We have to make a jump two minutes ago.”
She sobbed in front of her Uncle, muttering, “I don’t remember. I don’t remember.” Three faces stared back at her, their eyes completely dead. That’s what always haunted her: their eyes. It was her fault. She remembered the gun in her hand. But how could she have done it?
Ariel’s leg caught on the edge of the hull as she floated out of the derelict. Her body was in a tumble as she drifted into open space. The Coalition Corvette slid by slowly, coming from the direction she considered ‘down’, long and imposing in its green and black hues. She made the right call, she soon realized, telling Harley and the crew to leave.
When Marcus came to he found himself in the sickbay of his ship. His First Officer, Treven, was there waiting for him. Marcus didn’t even ask; he knew Ariel had escaped. “Did it work?”
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Christmas at the old houseJanet Kuypers(Spring 1991)
God, I remember the tree. Before my parents moved, when I was just a little kid, we used to have Christmas in the old house in Chicago. All of the brothers and sisters would come over, and on Christmas Eve we would sit around the tree in the front room. The tree looked so tall; it looked so powerful to me. It looked monstrous. Almost like an evergreen, it was green with a just a hint of blue to it -- and it seemed to glitter just standing there all by itself. We would put all sorts of lights on the tree and we had all of these old silk spun beaded ornaments that my sisters made when they were little decorating the tree. We put the tree right in front of a huge window in the front of the house. During Christmas we could always see the snow falling. And the presents were everywhere. We all bought gifts for each other -- and with five children, a brother in-law, a sister in-law, parents and grandparents, there always ended up being a ton of presents. I was the youngest, and the only one that was still really a child. I knew most of the gifts were for me.
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Driving To ChampaignJanet Kuypers1998
I’m in the car now, and Eugene is driving, and we’re going to Champaign. We stopped by Taco John’s for some burritos and Potato Olés, and now while Eugene is driving he’s also adding hot sauce to his burrito and eating and he’s steering with his knees and we’re on the highway doing 75 miles per hour and it’s got to be relatively unsafe to be in this car, I’m sure, so if I die in this car, I better write something down with some meaning.
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Janet Kuypers Bio
Janet Kuypers has a Communications degree in News/Editorial Journalism (starting in computer science engineering studies) from the UIUC. She had the equivalent of a minor in photography and specialized in creative writing. A portrait photographer for years in the early 1990s, she was also an acquaintance rape workshop facilitator, and she started her publishing career as an editor of two literary magazines. Later she was an art director, webmaster and photographer for a few magazines for a publishing company in Chicago, and this Journalism major was even the final featured poetry performer of 15 poets with a 10 minute feature at the 2006 Society of Professional Journalism Expo’s Chicago Poetry Showcase. This certified minister was even the officiant of a wedding in 2006. |
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